Wednesday, December 21, 2016
Is it okay to feel like this?
Wednesday, November 9, 2016
Little girl blue
Thursday, September 22, 2016
Our world
Another day another death
The speculating spectrum
leading to regression
wanting to wallow in continuous overt racial oppression
But my eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the lord
The truths of this country marching on while
black man are shot down, character annihilated, trampled over
JUST STAY DOWN
before they make more excuses cuz we just dogs and they need to
PUT US DOWN
That crack sound, revisiting the demons within those crack vials
Revisiting the drug laws of this government "crackdown"
Pushing our heads under water not wanting us to surface
giving us no chance to
BREATHE NOW (wheeze sounds)
Tis country tis a thy bears no inklings of liberty
elluding it's said sympathy
so many inconsistencies
leading to regime's of anger
by the white supremacy
BUT OUR TRUTHS KEEP MARCHING ON, RIGHT???
Sunday, September 4, 2016
Standing on my own 2 feet. How can you walk a mile in someelses shoes when we need to be barefoot
Im often standoffish
Came from the bottom to create my portion
Struggle in my own until i was woken
knowing that people depend on me almost every...day....often
Been there and swam back
Pain is what ive always engulfed in
My endorphines
Make me break in caution
Life struggles created a warrior who will stand on the top of this barrier
I been here before
Often....
Take the angst of your life into me because i already do it so often
The rapture is upon us but you still feeling good because i embodief your abhorrent
See no evil because i already faced the clouded black eyes and fear of his offering
Choose good or evil is the fight that appears often....paralyzing feel because i need to be powerless to his offering
I used to kill with non conformance and be steeled
To survive this life often
Reinvest in a life who's dividends have not got you there often
Worked so hard to survive
And now im questioning all it
I do the devils work
Im gods child and i spoil it
I am powerful beyond words and so scared i ignore it
The valley allowed me to lay around and be in the darkness
Because his light has always supported
Even when i felt u supported
When i recked myself and put my self in a bubble of no supportives
My levees of life have broken down
But im holding up for it
Life has smacked me down but i have never ignored it
Satiated the causes
Slamming all the doors you opened up for it
I cant see around or move my mouth to think peace will award it
The rapture is beginning
Are you ready to choose a side for it or ignore it?
Abba is my truth and he makes it rewarding
“You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.
Because i am the one who could"
Bet on this knowledge i need you to get often
I am a powerful enigma so satan will lean on me often
He will try to disrupt me often
He will try to destroy my strength often
He will try to turn me around from the road i have beating here and walked barefoot with bo shoes by making me embody
Constant
Detouring
My life is open to let you understand where this is going
Tend to the sheep and build so that our shepards ways are open
I constantly feel the choking
From not being open or
knowing where i am going or
how quick i will be going or
how disappointed i can be in slowing
relapsing the growing
only to reflect and be knowing
Only to except
Discombobulated flowing
My perception of things are not knowing...
There all knowing
My rights and dreams have been flowing
My light it seems is still growing
We can go back in things but the realization and eveidemce
makes alive and still growing
I will leave my heart open because the dark that thinks it can win will be surprised at the weight of the light it fights and tells to cease growing
Wednesday, August 17, 2016
It appears in the end
Living in honor and finding honor are 2 different things.
I was lost and crushed and he changed my life
Perception is everything
He changed my life
Couldnt discover how much it hurt to live my life...drilled through the hard shell of me cutting off people in this life
Wanted all his knowledge because it raised my life
Pay attention to details because he taught me right
Ability to be in a free world and do whats right
All hope was given
By you in my life.
I made a decision to change hearts
like you did for my life
It was an end but the beginning of the road within my life
I have risen because the strength you gave me for my life
A student but a client
You helped me survive my life
I want to give thanks for you having helped develop my life
Whether you ever know it or not i need you to understand your hand was prevelant within this life
Im a better person because of you in my life
I love you dearly
You will be here forever through writing and having touched this life
I will never forget.....
How you changed my life
I love you Dr. T
Saturday, August 6, 2016
Taxedermy
Life ripping out my internal organs
Propping me up so i adhere to its demands
Going through the motions of playing dead The mask in place
With all the fads we chase
The choices we make
The promises we break
The continuity we can lose in a second never to replace
The forgotton tools of reforming it all within a better space
Mind was in a better place
My mind used to be in a better place
No paparazzi Anonymy is what makes you never see this face
Monogomy in a facetious way
Can't let the media and normalizing of violence lead the way
We need to pray
Never let the ends justify the means by this way
Never go back to the days of lethal way
Our children are dying
Yet yall motherfuckers still won't lead the way
Yall the reason why our kids are struggling and live to be this way
Grow up to be this way
Don't get mad at me I just say what we all want and need to say
Let him lead the way
You never can see this way
Unless you are smart and woke enough to see this wayl
Monday, July 18, 2016
Soul shaker
The lives we lead are challenged by the lives we led
No hope or judgement just what was the best for in our heads at that time and place
Memories pulled from the mind
That seemed forgotten over time
Held less semblance over time
Led less strenuous in my mind
The world is turning so jump on the amnemities
Of socrates
The embodiment of philosophies
That changes philosophical travesties
Create astronomical catastrophies
But still predict and hold the balance in
The balance within
Me
Not sure of what it held previously
But this continuously
Religiously
Building in me
Will never conform
Or be....
Thursday, July 7, 2016
Witness
Its so funny
I take umbrage as a offended black
Afro-American pardon me
a
African-American pardon me
a
Negro pardon me
a
colored pardon me
a
house nigger pardon me
a
field nigger pardon me
a
slave pardon me
a
Inanimate object for recreational and injustice pardon me
a
part of a tribe that will never be discovered
a
Fuck this no pardon me
"Stick and move, stick and move..." (Notorious BIG)
I remember the first thought that stuck to my brain...
I was 5. I was taught that I needed to understand I already had 2 strikes against me:
1. I was African-American
2. I was female
The other strike that should of placed me out was sickle cell anemia but we have more important things to discuss right now
I grew up in Bed-Stuy during the "War on drugs" era better known as the 80's crack epidemic. I used to think those vials that visually captured my mind with those tops in rainbow colors were things left by others for me to play with.
I witnessed the drug and alcohol abuse that went rampant amongst citizens behind closed doors. Not knowing or understanding til later(when I became a criminologist/social worker) it was another form of self medicating to not live life.
I witnessed the war on poverty dismantling neighborhoods, not caring about certain neighborhoods, the beginnings of explointing neighborhoods
I witnessed the struggles of the project life, food stamps and food pantries with that rock solid ass cheese, and white labeled cans.
I witnessed when violence became death, drugs becmae territorial war, color war, pit us against WAR.....
I witnessed the deprecation of the African-American woman, the demeaning and cruel aspects of being free but being a slave to man so not being free....but being free but having to give up my thought process to sooth your thoughts and make you my world
now you wonder why all women want to be independent and non dependent, non-conforming and lead their dreams onward...it's okay you can keep assautling our hopes and dreams and the barriers we took to
and the reason we the most educated persons in this land as they see.....racism wasnt the only thing systematic
( http://iusedtohavetheblues.blogspot.com/2015/10/women-you-are-beautiful.html?m=1)
I witness the breakdown of the nuclear family
I witnessed the role of Rockefeller continuing to breakdown the nuclear family
I witnessed the take down of all the proud negros who had struggle to succeed in a free world
have that free world create systems
so in that free world they could struggle and never be free
I witness currently the repurcussions of leaving rehabilitation for incapacitation (I studied criminology for a reason)
I witness the lost of rights guarenteed as a USA citizen being stipped for mistakes made so the people most angry can't vote, cant live in public housing you take my money for, cant get a job, cant get a life....go back to what got me locked up in the 1st place...
A whole new class of degenerates right...
Whoa....
SYTEMS OVERLOAD MUST REBOOT
I witnessed incarcerated individuals having the ability to learn and better themselves stripped away because violence needs to be in cycles or the prison business will be in peril
I witness families destroyed by housing 85%of NYC residents in upstate counties so they can garner more money on their census while we get programs cut and taken away...ahh that cycle again
I witness the hurt and loss and pain when you cant afford or have the means to travel 8hrs for a visit
I witnessed the creation of gangs to combat systems
only to be remade to kill their own systems only to be raised to "kill each system, we need praise..
honor and ego is all we have in this game" cycling the violence in systems
These waters run deep and if we can't open our eyes to see what has led us here and what has got us here...we still that african leading others to our villiage cuz we want to show them love. ..
society makes us trust no one
Now we trust no one
I know what prison looks like...it's a shame almost every other black kid lives this life
I witnessed the policies deepen to hurt
Society deepen to change
Societal measures that have created this game
Let the niggers kill each other
on play and repeat
I witness rascism...the snide comments,
the looks and stares when i accompany a white family
I witnessed that shotgun barrel on my head saying niggas aint welcome
I witnessed being chased off of blocks that said there is no room for niggers here
I remember being indentured servants and i get angry and mad
Because you rather question me on what is bad and what we have and not wanting to take a look back because your bubble allows you to not really feel so bad or feel so sad or real a relief of glad....
(we cant be trusted still..right)
And when they can ...I got a resolution
I witnessed man...these times are abominatims of what im witnessing man...
what i will see in front of me witnessing
Damn
I can't..can you?
When does it stop
Learn the appropriation and desecration of a culture locked up in systematic and institutionalized rascism before you try to take cover
I grew up here...
you think you know but have no idea
Dont ask why im angry
ASK WHY IM ANGRY
TRY TO FIGURE OUT WHY IM ANGRY
If you say nothing your just as guilty
This world for you may have have been rainbows and unicorns but for me
Its always been crazy....
#respeckthislane
Friday, June 24, 2016
King me
Inadvertantly i fell for it
Felt it exist
Silly i feel this is it
How can i know so soon
This might be legit
Im scrambled in shit
But we can make every mix
Take every hit
Be thankful for all this shit
Ease up to be tranquil in it
Is this a mirage cuz
I need to be prepared to be
Disappointed
It fits
Always disappointed and shit
Wrapping the blanket over me
to agree to imbibe in more of this shit
me im more substantial for this
Light, stars and a kiss
No need
King check
For his mate
Cuz he wants for this shit
To be
Or not to be
Fuck it we can handle this shit
No need for a past
This is now lets advance off this rip
Advance to live in
Advance to be in
Our infatuatuous anomly
Is the cause for this shit
Check mate
Sunday, June 19, 2016
Tragic
Life snuffed
But im born to corrupt
This story of a life gone is more than enough
Violence and non empathy has been more than enough
I light the candle but the darkness seems to be brighter than enough
Im a change of life founder
How can i get my message higher
Death and death and forgottiness
This is our trancedance
Why cant we come together to end this
As far as it can go
The world is hiding in the shadows i cant let this shit go
I wont let this shit go..
I fall to my knees praying that god can bring me to the know
I cry inside because outside i need to be stronger than you can know
Monday, June 13, 2016
Life
Simplistic trash
Perpendicular of my rag
This death swag
has my health bad
We dying in this desert
But that water on the horizon is not a quick fix
It's just a mirage it seems
We all are worthy to conquer more things
Create more dreams
Relate to ALL BEINGS
This world needs to recoup
We need to recognize truths and pop those bubbles around you
We different on the outer but we all look the same in the inner
Just my own
juxtaposition
Why can't yall listen
What will it take for us to listen?
Cry for our brothers
Hold faith for our mothers
How better now we have to suffer
Lost and found in zion
The beat of my heart
Encapsulates my mind
I want to embark on this journey
But am left unsure by your responses
My conscious becomes bitter nonsense
Trying to rationalize your incontinence
Wanting to indulge in your horizen
Wanting to grow within us to build these mountains
Breaking of barriers or walls
I fall forward thinking about the past leaves me stricken with fear and not knowing how to move forward
Im a horder of my own dreams
Scared to pull the trigger
So i grieve in what is not
Make plans to be forgot
Push myself further in isolation
Because my defense of self is all thats left that i got
I should of told you sooner
I wanted it too.....
Thursday, April 21, 2016
Love
The cards sat stagnant as the game of life played out
Nothing to be worried about
You left me with no worry throughout
Scared of how to get there
Chopped and screwed my share
Wondering how did the fates align again only tp wonder after 15yrs we got here
Wondering why lightening struck but we needed to experience all of such
At a point we were both too much
At a point we both had sucked
to create a life
We both could touch
And revel in what we did to get here
How we rather not sit here
Legit in the knowledge
We will never just sit here
Time cares
The divine shares
Rewrapped in our love to begin again
Loke we always been there
We always been here
Hope we will always be here
Hope that we creat an end to a new beginning and win here.....
Knowing we will creste a new beginning so we can flourish and live here.....
Love
Wednesday, April 20, 2016
Revelation 3224649061211030124
Revelation
This life became unclean and became dangerous
This experience seems like a average median of the dangerous
A active mean to be blameless
Trying to live the dream but the govt is now my massa and he can be dangerous
Trapping a queen is no less dangerous
This queen bursting at the seams of dreams...
Shit....
I'm...
trying to fight dangerous
We can regain what we flee
If its not dangerous
We have to fight to believe
Even when its dangerous
We have to watch who we see
Cuz these assholes more dangerous
Watch where we be...because its no less dangerous...
Disregard the message of where and how we see
That remains dangerous
Hitting the books for the youth to all see...how they can be intellectually dangerous
This is my.goal to achieve
I may appear no less dangerous
But when you investigate (please)
You will really see
how close you came to my dangerous
Don't let it be an irrational thing to want to be more dangerous
Just know rhat this proves...
How many lived i can move
By being this dangerous
Monday, April 4, 2016
Theres never a lack of preservarance only a need to be pushed down
Irregularities that show you the things that had to be pushed down
We are all divided from the things we push down
Trolling on telepathy because the truth of the martry has to push down
No vocal world changes or how to be put down
No battle rages for us to be put down
No value can save us....if you look up to look down
No thoughts of patience in how to be put down
You.expected me to fail and be led to this push down
Segregation exudes but you want to be good no
I hung from a balance and was waterhoused to be good now
I reckon with savings i can only be pushed now
...same roads of the forsaken..i had to endure now
value is questioned around you to feel sound i was i hung and knowing
No time to forget now
ohanged in growing
Ita no longer saying...i can no longer say in..the truths of behavior
The constant boost of behavior
To get mad at the savior but cover these plates of ....obstacles...we all have obstacles...wanna cry you a river because the rich think they go to sleep in so many more obstacles
Im done yelling
.just give.me the obstacles
Im done selling look deeper at . obstacles so im still going....even when im at odds to choose
Climate change
I never really cared about it
Held no qualms about it
Never thought about it
Til i saw a running pattern
Born the second day of spring
So the world seems to adapt to
A rebirthing
To hold you enrapt too
Snowing during the month of my birth
It hailed in a burst
Lightening striking for worth
Winds going 40-60 mph
Shaking my windows
Sleep evades when this is residential
Sandy took our ease of disbelief when she took all our windows
Our dreams of low lying issues
This is now a boisterous issue
This is now a government issue
We need to recognize these natural disasters will kill you
Why cuz FEMA
You may think it was changed but those homes are forgotten venues
I live in the city
But see the reflects
The now of each breathe
The forgotten qualms of regress
How long they wait to rebranch
How the plant and weather have de-vanced
Volitale reconciled to advance only to be apart of this already set in motion
devolved resolve of the dying our planet
Needs to evolve
We took it way to much for granted
Wish this was a fable from esab
Reminded by death
Typhoons and monsoons
Earthquakes and tremors will react soon
Tornadoes more frequent than tattoos
Tsumanis are here to attack to
When that tide rises
We will react soon
If only we could of reacted sooner
Living in bubbles don't make it clearer
Ignoring the truth wont fix it sooner
The order of truth is to fix it sooner
We have failed in our use...
To see it clearer
No one believing the truth in what they have to
Depleting the planet of what it has groomed
What the resourses had to adapt to
While living off safe energy may not generate the money but exist in the have toos
Too focused on the money
Not what we need to adapt
Still focused on money
We will be leaving a chance to
Stop this only
Because we now see and believe that we have to
We have to see and not ignore what we have to
No longer playing a game of what have yous
Seeing our planet is dying in
Capsules
Lingering amd ignoring all the battles the war is going to be lost if we dont do what we have to
Sunday, April 3, 2016
Nothing matters....at all
I have nothing
I care about nothing
No need of the thoughts in place
Now I can erase
The thoughts of nothing
Sim card relevance
Sim card seperatist
Real hard irrelavance
Serving shade and things cuz we deserve advance
Positively molding them...
To deserve a chance
My valley is weak
But life deserves advance
Positively rolling
to deserve a chance
Life is still going
So promote a chance
Society not knowing
They deserve this chance
Im constantly folding
No one believes they deserve this chance
Embedding knowing
We always deserve advance
I'll keep going so all can deserve a chance
Wednesday, March 30, 2016
What is created
I still my mind
But yet the life it came
A life has reign
All my ends and outs
my portions and segregations abound
He wears a crown
I need to get down but theres no need to get down
Its been sanctioned
new life is awaiting
No formal chasing
No formal erasing
God has touched and bled and took his time to shed
The blood of your honor
The blood of dishonor
But i wear my truths
Its only never anymore a dishonor
Salvant
Screeching
Born in this honor
Born for this honor
The bible breached it
..she was born in this honor
Sunday, March 27, 2016
Forget me not...love living or be left with just existing. -Davinna Thrower
Don't forget the initial
Don't forget all the issues
Don't forget how im real true
To share my story with you
Don't forget you have an end too
Don't forget these eyes that looked in you
Don't forget the lies you lay into
Don't forget the laugh of whom sent you
Don't forget the crazy chick in all venues
Hell raising shit in all venues
Bitch endangered crip
My name is it
Its not the same and shit
Who can we continue to blame for this
Who sent you
How no one wanted me to change and shit
No one realized the game was sick
No on realized the blame of it
No one realized the change it did
No one saw a frightened kid
No one heard the cries of a combat kid
No one knows the effects of PTSD like i did
No one knew the hurt of a closed fist like i did
No one knew the hope to live like i did
No one lost hope in living like i did
Society pulling but no one experienced what i did
No one knew what i did
No one knew what it is
No one knows how tired i' is
No one talked about the entire things
No one ever talked about the lies and things
No one talked about the ripple effect
No one talks about the pain and regret
No one talks about the rape and deflect
The simple regret
The little regrets
The tremendous regrets
The stupendous regrets
The try to end it regrets
The almost ending it regrets
The fact of being here regrets
The fact of being here regrets
The loss of being here regressed
No one talks about the faults and blame
No one talks about my ability to remain the same
Remain the same
Remain the same
No one thinks of a child distained
No one thinks about the flow of things
No.one thinks about the ultimate cause
No one thinks about the individual wars
No one thinks about the past of us in chains
Lynched and hanged
Water hosed missing our rights all the same
War on drugs
And slavery is the same
We lose the abilty to function like 3/5 of a person it hasn't changed
War on poverty
Psychotic idiocracy still remains
I need to start over but fear
the change will remain the same
I need to start over
but the pain remains
We need to start over but internal blames the same
I need to get over.....being changed by things
Lynched in a brain that requires the heak in change forever wrought to try ro exact the change
No one thinks about our resort to change
I am woman
I am vibrant
I refuse to remain silent
I am tireless off my crying
Tireless but still striving
Tireless but still riding
Trying to forget all my grounding
I need to forget all my grounding
Requipped with no silence
I embody all the violence
All i want is silence
All i need is silence
All i achieve and speak on will only be met with more silence
Countless violence
Our blood is spilled within mire violence
I am a teacher, a preacher, a questionable seeker, a thinker, a heavy drinker, a given up creature...a used to be rambunctious leader... a dealer, a healer, a speaker, a poet with immeasurable features
My words are my testimony
My worlds are the future
Ive grown bored with the future
Im forlorn off the future
Im cordorned off from the future
Forced to live each day in war with my ruler
Forced to live in war with a body of no future
Forced to still record the angst of my intruders
Forced to still endure this pain of no future
TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW I CAN BE CAUSE TO CHANGE ALL YOUR FUTURES
It is with remorse if you don't change for the future
Nothing
I dont want to think
I never want to think
I want to live in a stupor of non existence
It hurts too much to think
I can not forgive this
I cannot be relentless when im tired of resentment
Im scared of commitment
Need no one knowing how fucked up i live my existence
Im the witness
But the holes i dig are deep and offer no resistance
When i fall
I fall into
An abyss surrounded by malice, guarded by challenge
Revoking the solice
Irrevocably damaged
Irrevocably damaged
Theres no hope for me damaged
I dont want to be
Irreversibly sandwiched
Dont get close to me
I'm emotional challenged
Its no longer in stilled beliefs
My mind is the chalice
Poisoned so don't drink from it
Wondering how i still manage...
Dungeons and dragons
Lost in a circle
Rounding about
Heat on my turbulence
Just riding it out
Hot from the urgency
Hot from insurgency
Hot from reworking me
Hot from....reworking me
Locked in a room
And no key exist
Locked in a room where i don't exist
Locked in a place i can't transist
Locked in my brain
Trying to reboot the shit
Trying to recoup for shit
Trying to be loose with it
Not trying to be losing it
Im ill equipped
Im in the quits
Im in this shit
I need an end to it
I need a friend in this
I ruin my friends and shit
I ruin the glimpse i get
I ruin.....myself as quick
I need to run....
But it cant be done
I cant be done
This fight cant be won
Shit
Friday, March 25, 2016
If i died today
No longer watching the sun rise
No longer waiting to get up after the sunrise
No alarm to go off
No place to spend my life
No place to grow
Only the sunrise
No need to know what exist after the sunrise
No need to persist
After the sunrise
No need to fit in or exist
In the craziness it takes to exist
After the sunrise
No more demons to have fits
No more waking in the middle of the night exist
No more pain in my limbs
No more strain to my zen
No more hate from within
No more judging from within
No more doubt from within
Only the sunrise
No more torturing of this soul
No more balance to behold
No more challenges to be hold
No more fear of the cold
Just the sunrise
No more untamable beast
No more sanctioned retreats
No more cooking relief
No more writing from me
No more doubting, im free
Only the sunrise
No more traveling today
No more blue waters off a bay
No more jumping
out of planes or snorkeling in the A (Asia)
No more experiencing changes
No more opinions on life changes
No more working til i die
No more disease that hurt inside
No more disease to hurt inside
Only just the sunrise
No more questions in the dark
No more equations of whats not
No more challenges to me
No more others left to please
No more of things i can't take
No telling love ones i need to thank
No more hugs or different chances
No more life or flirty glances
Nothing more left to fix
No more claims that exist
No more trees in the eye line
No more juggling off the sidelines
No more sleepless nights through the nighttime
But the sun rise
Remember the truth
Mortality is not invisible
We garner things to be visible
We harbor things as individuals
We make it seem as if mortality is livable
False hope of our physical
Or busy talk
Just busy thoughts
Oh wait here comes another sunrise
Open your eyes in live people and remember and hold dear to you what you would miss
If you hadn't woke up..this sunrise
Badgers
In my mind
No cohesiveness of existence
Counting instance
I count within this
World of the endless
Words from the friendless
Travesties of macrebe
I always knew there was no chance for me
Fighting through there being no chance for me
Living with knowing there would be no chance for me
Living and growing
Knowing there's no chance for me
Identity showing
In it being no chance for me
Calmness growing
with having no chance for me
I'm still knowing
I took every chance I see
I'm still growing
We still romance in unadvancing see
In
Us knowing
We will never advance in things
We still growing
In living the fantasies
Im still hoping
You give up the fantasies
And keep us growing
To seperate the fantasies
And get on with
Going away from these childish things
House niggas growing
To live in those fantasies
But i know them...
They material fantasies
They embody the fancy things
There are chosen to embody
the shiny things
Niggas glowing
Chasing in a fantasy
I cant hold them to be false because of what they see
Dont wanna know em
I live it to breathe
you live life for....
see
Life is more important than hyping non righteous things
And i still know them
Eradicating our hopes and dreams
Jails is potent
With stifling the lives it ceased
Fighting the growing
Incapacitation of life regimes
We lost the spoken
Who reiterated our lives and dreams
Niggas so spent on lacking in life and dreams
We need some spoken to remember the life and dreams
I'll be outspoken to not table the life and dreams
I have spoken
profess in these life and dreams
I'm still knowing
I won't regress in selling this life and dreams
I should confess
Don't sleep on how smart we seem
Intellect growing...you think we have forgotton things
I should regress
but you need to understand the life we bring
I should address
Embody the simple things
Egyptian rulers can proclaim
Our vibrant things
Mesopotamia and how we blessed really started things
Egyptian rulers and how no one questioned things
We were rulers
Whether we kings or queens
Simple rulers
Hieroglyphics profess such things
Dont forget we powerful
Even if outside our means
Because I think your confused..... #myblackisbeautiful #africa #melatonin #slavery #wedontforget #itwasonlyboughtaweekago
#lifeformehasbeennocrystalstairs #immerseinyourhistory #nowaterhose #nolynching #wearenotourgrandparentschildren #wejump #wewillbeatyourass#shitsnotgoongdownthesame #thatswhyblackpeoplereallydontlikewater
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Thursday, March 24, 2016
It is what it is
I'm that bk banger
Black lives changer
Mortal world changer
The cycle of violence breaker
Im the one thay escaped from all the darkness
Took my ass to school so i can school the block in
Code switching and being resilient
How to prevent shit
In this changing city
From gritty to pretty mirage gritty
Brooklyn ny state of mind in me
Multi-degreed so you believe harder
Street scholar
But fall to my knees to head father
I semi-have faith, i semi-relate, I'm semi-irate
But this is my plate, so im a eat it up
From ganging to glory
This is my story
Im protected by glory
Anointed by glory
Brooklyn raised me
Then it chewed me out
And then it changed me
A girl grew in brooklyn
But it was elohim that saved me
Conditioned fools you need to start to believe harder
Be more then street scholars
So you can dream farther
Pick some cotton
We all still niggas at seperate fountains
If you don't know by now damn you've frogotton
Back of the bus shit
Emmit still hanging in my circumference
Not protected by gov'ment
Incarcerating our governance
Jom had a hand in segregating all our cities,
souls is empty
But all the water hoses are not empty
Raped and reprieved
Ancestors hanging on trees
Denying us dreams
3/5 eradicating our means
It was never our dream
We all kings and queens
Let's not forget about things
That help us hold dreams
Jails just stealing our men
being stolen again
but the ships are the penz
Incapacitation within
War on drugs was the end
It was all set up by them
The war on poverty designed to degenerate our intellectual property
We can't solve it b
When set up for failure in this hypocrisy
Idiocracy
Idiots jumping on idiocraty
Mediocrity
Done with this world
Its a monopoly
Of injustice
Incarcerating all the righteous
Friday, March 11, 2016
Systematically untrustworthy
Burning wood is not a smell delivered to the ghetto
No....burning of sage or
Hickory dickory dock
Cherrywood or oak
GSR, CDR, GFR is more the smell of the revenue
Blocks ain't scared of you
Systematically evolved to still not level with you
It's the hood boss
They have their measures to
Although faded
They want to hold on to something to prove
Instead of growing the tools gifted to them
Lack of utilization makes it rusty
How can you trust thee
when there's no one you can trust...see...
Yet I still can't leave home
I'm the one in my family being gutsy
New York City or bust g
This city has touched me
A girl grew in Brooklyn lacking luxury
Was raised in the south so don't tell me how it must be
Racist enterprise
lack my tone no idea of what it must be
don't make a career on how you protesting what it must be, don't swing your opinion if you never experienced what it must be
no swinging from chandeliers no matter the shade still house nigga in this country
Thursday, March 10, 2016
In the midst of crisis.....
Meds kicking in but
I'm just wary'd out
Told me life was a journey
It can be all good and then things turn south
This road is unpaved and lading with worry
This is my pill to swallow
So alone in this journey
I didn't choose this hand but i'll play
I have no choice
But my.....voice
But.....my....voice
But..............my voice
Is even louder than before
Illegal raiding...
at the door to your mind
It took time for me to find
How to walk this line
How to boss this line
How not to cross......the line
Fitful in anger
I get mad at my savior
Mad at my creator
Then mad at my behavior
Life is a blameless game yet we blame and rationalize until we actually believe we can do no wrong
I do wrong, so lets cut the shit
I used to be the chick that cut up bricks
I used to be the girl to me-ow and get those licks
I used to be the chick that took no shit
I used to be the chick that would cut you quick
I used to be the chick that wasn't enticed by pricks
Never enticed by dick
I learned some lessons quick
I'm the survivor who suffers in silence
But choose to live vibrant
Learned how to be less violent
Learned when I didn't need to challenge
Learned its not about the hood you leave
Only about the planting of seeds
So you can grow these teens
I know these things
I have told you things
LIFE HAS SHOWED ME THINGS
I had to get my head right
Want no one to have to experience my life
But get my book when its out so you can understand my life
I will never get my head right
So i try to get through and show these youth what to do
for the future awaits
As of now I still wait for this sickle cell crisis to abate
I'm in so much pain
Writing is my escape
I went from carrying weight
To carrying THIS weight
I'm in my head
Hoping this crisis will erase...
I can only be so lucky
Sickle cell be having me stuck c
Making me judge me, so i think everyone else judge me
Makes me weak and vulnerable
Wondering how anyone can ever love me
Wondering if anyone can ever love me
Wondering if i can ever put down my guard to........
let someone love me
I'm in my head