Enlightenment rears......

Who are you to call me broken
Created in his image
Repenting for forgiveness in this world of loss
I have seen the light of day and it did not include you
Oh how the mighty have fallen
Bitter with name calling, to make you feel better within yourself?

Years of molding and constant erosion capsizing over a sea of naught 
It brings the light of well knowledge, deeply regarded secrets of the loss
It fills your body with the reward of seeing through the dirt
It will hurt and bring you pain, driving you to swim endless in the words 

Then it's over

For unto you the knowledge that has rested inside you
You wanted to deny too, making you keep ties to
has loosened it's mighty grip
You see it in the words, the actions, the constant distractions
Leading you to where you learn.......

And then you do........

Learn......

Tools

The tools of my trade has me running for an outlet to trade all my tools.
Epiphanies don't just happen, they are born from dreams.....wants....needs...
The ever changing present makes me scream for a new future...all while bluffing my way through a hand that others would have folded in long ago. 
The repression of my transgressions allows the bitterness to fester. It seems in the end the joke is always on me as if assigned to constantly play the jester
Making myself look the fool.
The sensation of my own annihilation creeps slowly through my mind.

Creating travesties and thoughtless things to the epicenter of this living.
I know I have been given, the gift of many things to praise and sing and yet I'm still held within the rapture....
My heart beats faster.....I know who I want to become but his work is far from done
Its hard to trust within a cause.
Life's constant disappointments, leave me feeling disjointed as if the sickle cell has won....

I look around within my circle to gather all my wits.....
Trying to find a cause of the effect it brought and why it still lay's unconquered
You could say that the......
Way I came to be, left me thirsty with no water....

In the end.....I am my father's daughter
Hoping to get a reprieve, working with tools I never encountered

its been awhile

My mind evolves
slowing the devolve
what does it take to be okay??

We work to be free
It makes me believe
happiness was never offered

The drive in me
Leads to dastard things
And makes me want to give this offer

The words play
and leave me with a pick
Only to string along the balance

Brain freeze fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

The clock strikes 6

I can sit here and be poignant, but I wont be
Lyrically fit, mentally equipped
For this is it, the clock strikes 6

The scalpel driven by divine intevention
Im trusting him
Whether its a long walk in the park or a short swim in the pond
Memories flood, causing a drive thru
Tunneling the vision of eyes wide open

I live adequately and positively
My mind has evolved to see
What you givie up, can make you strong

Just in case, I love you........

All........

The hypocrisy that rules us will continue to grow stronger
Unless we open our eyes to the idiocracy that
walks us down the valley

An oasis awaits
If your mind is firm then all those who wander were never lost
Never forced, to adhere to things of nature......

I am woman hear me roar
Or whimper
Or argue
Or...............

The storm is here to create chaos within perfect order
The rain must come
for our minds are dry to the fact
Midwesting  it
Life is a gift

Don't for get yours.........
I'm a keep getting mine

Darkness almost engulfed me..... I AM WHO I AM saved me

This is not a story for the faint of heart
Yet I faint at the thought
The disbelief led to disbelief as I gazed into the horror of it's eyes

Darkness tried to take what it didnt have a right to
What there was held light to
To join the minions of his cause

Slithering in the dark
Racing through my heart
To slither around the bend

The memory of the eyes did frighten
Yet it bought the enlightening
To bring me back from the brink of chaos

It came and so did he
Around the corner of my eyes
Tip toes up the side
A feline in it's movement

The eyes showcased the blackness of eternal fire
It was me it desired until I called upon his name
Hushed thoughts, valiant prayers.....

Repenting to move forward
Save me........

And he did
As the days have grown
So has his tone
Cuz I can hear him even louder

It was not a dream
I know these things
A reason I gave my life to he that is higher

I repent............

So should you...........

I say what i mean and mean what i say

Trappings of adolescence leaves the three way cold
I been told
This is where i would rest at
Pull the curtain back to reveal those in wrong

Wanted but not admired
My love does expire
and leave you shivering in the cold

I want so much and yet so little
The driving links me to those suffering my wrongs
I know what i mean when i say it
Facebook display it to capture my voice alone

I may write too much
Or have balls too much
To tell those under, i belong!!!

I say what I mean and mean what i say...
Every passing day
I balance whether I was wrong...

My writing does the same thing as drugs...
It helps me get along
I'm strong, but so weak
My values speak measures of forlorn

Yet im happy, to be weathering my storm 
 Cause I breathe a hurricane
To write the slain of the ones that have moved on

RIP GEORGIE

Im still here to verse my fears and tell motherfuckers to move on

This disease brings me too my knees...i don't regret i go along
Whats your challenge
I find my balance
In referring to the wrong

Im a blasphemy because
I drink that drug
that has me wondering where i went wrong

I say what I mean and mean what i say

Danger

Six flies thru david's eyes

The dust can never settle

I rock that blue

Its time and proof

That i will c us conquer

Your body sings....aint noble in things

I break ya neck your utter dumb shit

Lead with the crunking

Entitling something and leaving skies the form of was

Nature swings, the sky becomes blue thangs

and lifts the crates above their sponsor

eight displayed the 2 high grades and thirded them to another author

The stones the grains

These G formed things to make me sit upon ya

I cee this never be this

We the cry of the earth my walk is voodoo

And then it lands....

Skies blue with clear skies

Patois spark

A wha du yu?
Jamacians raised me
Politics made me
fickle for the cause

Everything being Irie
Turmoil inside me
But I thunderto the rest

The bumbaclot
Lead stooppen parts
and tarnation of the grave

I think that we a do da best of we
and continue into the sun

My yardshows me
I moved on to better thangs
And await the moral fun

Im rising above, the fakes bigged up
The ringing bells of Beanies loves

A wha du yu??

Easy nah brethren

my heart cries
Noone can hear it speak
I down size only to downsize and continue in the deep
I hurt hear
aint no love care and imresigned to be alone

Obliterated by all we contemplated..only to be riding in the deep
I still seek
It wont get found twice....been called to suffer that life and think that im abhorrent

My struggle seems to latch somethings and make me ride upon it....
My single clutch,dont know as much and leave me faded an just dormant.....
I write to you,give props to u...if you dont call me on it

Saviorof dreams
I wrote my dreams and put a map so i can score it\

But its over now

Nowhere

Your the voice in my head

Screaming to believe love has come

To no avail, I separate from giving in

Love weighs me down

Airy guidance whispers in the wind

No where is left for us to go

No commendations or awards

My heart carries the same weight as the trophy

Sometimes first is last and last leaves you nowhere

Running......

Nipping at my toes but I'm unable to reciprocate my creation

I'm a big girl...you don't need my guidance but it seems.....

Nowhere is always here

And you say she's just a friend...

Where are you now?

Snapshots of total recall immerse me in your spirit

The call drips of lust

Catch it

Forbidden routes lead me to your being

We give in or we give up

Clarity is crystal clear 

There is a fire burning through my veins,flowing to my heart

Deepness makes it all the more better.......

Can you feel the depths of my dispair?

They still lead to nowhere

You dont exist, but i can dream...

Picturesque notations of a fantasy that boggles my mind

I hope we have it all

Out of nowhere

Challenges

What I am faced with you will never know

How close to death I come, you will never know

Certain things are meant for an audience 

Others trap you, making you deal with explanations

This is me in the world

It ain't easy, to appease me, or deceive me or think you can retrieve the

Intiment moments of me and where I stand

They say its over

but whats the process of beginning

This dude sheen was winning?/

If we were given the same aspects and same contracts.....

It be doubled down

You think you know me now?

Cuz my writing provides so much insight?

Get right, you will never learn who i have become

I sit here with a body that pleads for silence...

Because I'm non-violent, i wont fuck myself

Silence seems golden, 

I am hear cuz I'm chosen to guide you through what  is wrong

That don't mean its calm or I'm built so strong

Just means that I am open

To live dead American dreams

And hope that we........change the balance of the young...

Tears dismayed to fall, i hate it all

but still work it to the ending

Nobody knows the trouble i been through

Most will never know

I dream for once to share as much

With someone who i can care for

Be there for

Shut them down when they don't have the head for

I preach from the valley of the shadow of death

No one can quiet this storm...

He speaks to me,

speak within thee but still cant right none of my wrongs...

Its a challenge..................

Fall asleep you might be woken up

I came in fighting
The square left me striving....for more knuckles in my cause
I rocked that blue and made certain to
Direct the redness of the wrong

The six points rang
Made me do some things
I will regret for however long
I bleed the same but was about the gang relation
Couldn't tell me I was wrong

Six points issued
Remembered all we went
Name carried bells for so long
I wish you would
Cuz, knuckle game still good...
Test it only if you want to......

Illegal driving skills
You know it's real
Alcoholic wit no sponsor
Fingers crushed, signs are thrown
Reading blue will always conquer

Ceanie still, hides away that steel
Hesitating to tell you what the noise for
Lorkin hazed mirage is what you fall for
Just to show im still here

You fall asleep.....

I'm  a wake you up...eventually, consistently, habitually

CUZ I CREATE THE STORM

Fighting to be here

Preach is the word i hear but i have to conquer

This blog is not a sponsor or a safety net

You get it yet you still hang on the hidden cord

No one can be or see or be or see

Anything but what they expect

Circumspect to keep you on your toes

The balance knows that the lives we hold are losing cus they want to

Dont tell me its because the white of things led you to default on.....

We make our beds

We give the head to increase happiness in another

Let me tell you why im mad

We sit here and allow crayola to rule us

Let the idea of packing heat fool us

To be secure in the rumors....

we feed the same....cant right this game

but i can be a sponsor

Dereliction seems

To crush hopes and dreams

Institutionalizing where you were heading 

Wheres your setting

Fool me once and parole keeps you vetting

I talk so that I hear the words that form in my head

I write so that im remembered when i am dead

Howeveer, its about getting the truth into your head

Do you think giving head will keep you more fed than filling??

Dealing in it, to swivel in it and present them with your cause?

I hear you, i see you, used to be you...
That's the crushing of my cause

Nobody knows unless they  live it..

Wheres that data from i rescind it

You dont know me or all the wars....

Irag and afganistan hold nothing to the war at hand killing people in the hood

The balance stood to make us good
but we rather reap what we sow

And so...it continues

Crossong venues...to show you that its strong

No its wrong.....

I will not allow the ignorance or lack of dillegence to read me what is wrong

Assholes

Your outfit cost more than your rent then somethings wrong...

I can move on but leave a generation in the storm.....to drain

When we care about true religion jeans but not religious things it worries me to the bone

Are you safe at home...pretending happy...or need a sugar daddy to move on?

I pity you....cuz bitch i work and though my check dont twerk it helps me to continue on

You think you strong...

You never lived to have that answer

Im still fighting..........and will continue to do such..

Feelings (A ballad)

I thought it was over
resigned within myself
It would end like this, I told ya
Cant be right with myself

The tears, fall easy
The mix of emotions, carry on
I thought it be easy
but I lied to myself

Iceberg is frozen
Melting bad on itself
They said it wont be easy
but I lied to myself

Trap is framed and its been baited
Caught myself in the weeds
This can't mean its over
Feel so bare, I cant breathe

Life is over
Considering it was planned
Who gave me suffering
Who showed me loss of the facts

I hate its over
I hate that that I cant be moved
Im pushing anger
Time to face the sudden truth

This wont end well
I hate the known facts
I'm growing weaker
Cant meditate to relax

My time is over
Never thought it would be
Nobody gets it
Wiping tears on my sleeve

Who said its over
Who said its over
Who said its over
who saidddddddddd

Smile bright, big girl face now
You are woman suck it up
This time aint easy
Still finding answers to whats wrong

Doubt and fault taking over
I knew the outcome would be rough
My time is over
Giving up just because

Im too tired to be  here
Too tired to see here
Too tired to breathe here
To tired...to.....live........

Want is need when u need it to be
But you can never be free of the
hurt, lost and will
Seems he changed up
I need to switch my game up

Hand slipping out my grasp
Its over
Man its over
What do I do its over
How do I live its over

What do I do
Rhetorical 
Lied to you
No show and proof
I'm done

Its black

You dont even know

Im not the typical shorty
Many dudes, yeah I be fooling
All in my ish cuz of my unnatural seclusion
Wondering what Im doing
Who i'm screwing
or just eluding
Never been in love, found out shit is just for fools and

I feel like the whole world is on my shoulders
Never no trick, dont do favors cuz im no douja
Your like paper I can fold ya
When I walk by dudes just wide eye, like they was awaken by the foldgers

Stress getting me
Depression aint the only thing that be eating me
So do you honey
Cuz im a def do me

You c me do me
Im a be me, scuze me
Do me dirty, okay boo you gonna c
Cuz I do
If I was your wife than i stand by you
Hard times too
Cuz cant nobody see you just as I do
Yall never find a love like this, you wasted to much time boo
You took something i cant get back you wasted too much time boo

It was mutual if i beat alot know what I do to you,
To prove to you, to groove with you,
cant get enough of soothing you
Say im playing a game but why would i fool with you????

Compassion needed
More and more now i feel depleted
Love is love boo
But your not the only one that need it
To breathe it
Knew you was my heart cuz you eat it it

Took my innocence matter fact you know what nooka keep it

Stop clocking me
Cuz in your dreams i know you still watching me
Thought you was bout it babe so why you still jocking me

No apologies or copping pleas
No more licking, please get off your knees
Knew it take a man to understand my street philosophies

Hesitation, action came before I contemplated
What you took for me cant be priced for compensation
Learned the lesson
Dont trust no one, keep em guessing
No matter who it is go no further than caressing

Thats why they wetting
Cuz im too real for them to C
Maybe one day, I'll find a man as real as me...........

You got a long way home

You got a long way home

your fancy footwork cant take you there

You got a long way home

your fancy footwork will never get you there

You took me higher than I could ever fly

Twisted works, clouded my sky

Invested much  and lost it all

Your tender words

don't mean shit at all

A common thief, stole my heart

I guess I'm now a broken part

Imperfect beauty set the pace

You may be leading but i win this race

Tears leave stains on promises

Next time I'll use my common sense

Hurt me hard with softer claims

Time to pick up and start again

You got a long way home

your fancy footwork cant take you there

You got a long way home

your fancy footwork will never get you there

Clouded haze, my j is near

Reiterating no need for here

elaborate tunnels peripheral sound bites

I'm missing home......

M missing home

The distance grows when you talk

I'm not stupid you silly punk

I got the keys and the drive is all right

Hope your feet ain't cold

Your walking home.....

Dancing around the issues here

You cant hide behind your beer

Self medication gives you no fear

But your far from home

long way goes

You got a long way home

your fancy footwork cant take you there

You got a long way home

your fancy footwork will never get you there

All we can do is wait it out
and the truth will come out
Dont believe his tainted words........
truth is the only form of hurt

I stuck by and kept you near
Im a fool, cuz you left me here
 Tried and tried and made excuse
your talk is dryer than the vermouth

Priveluge to even get entwined
Stupid me for wasting time
Hold is broke so no more games
Heard enough its all the same

All I can do is wait it out.............
A big girl now
I cast my doubts
Dont believe I felt for you
You just lost a treasure boo

Hiding blind
no need to delve
welcome to your form of hell
Hit the bricks cuz they dont sing
Your empty promises and bells dont ring

I put you hear so you could win
You will never touch this soul again
All you can do is beg and plead and hope i give you mercy please

All you can do is wait it out
and the truth will come out
dont believe your tainted words......
my truth is your only form of hurt

I get high and you get drunk

I get high and you get drunk/

together we put on the funk/

We  break it down and party all night/

Cuz its been a while...it been a while/

Sweet temptation of the mind/

contemplating its been some time/

You laid it downed and now im alright
But its been a while, its been a while

shaky pages let you know I'm there/

all bundled up but still want your care/

Denying truth leaves me alright
But im lying now, im lying now

Haziness, makes my body float

weed and pills, meth, g drink and coke

The big eyed feeling led me all night

It's been a while...its been a while

Standing with you but feel im not here

The since of lose, I have no fear

This is something you need to hear

Its been a while

Its been a while

I get high and you get drunk

Wisp of smoke, the smells too much

Chocolate flowing but sours dutch
Its been awhile, its been awhile

AK rise I lean to side
Swaying off the hurt inside
 Lifted senses or lack of touch

Cuz its been a while

Its been a while

I get high and you get drunk/

together we put on the funk/

We  break it down and party all night/

Cuz its been a while...it been a while/

Stabilizing, I don't need much

Cuz it makes me forget about you.......
Its makes mr forget about that
It makes me forget what was wacked

Its been a while or has it chile?

Hooka fruit and molly called

Feeling light, no need at all

Lost in crowds, cant take it now

Cuz its been a while

Its been a while

Funk pulsating, i need you near

Once I'm high, forget your there

Works out good and I party all night

Cuz its been a while....

It's been a Whileeeeeeeeeeee

Popping, sniffing, gulping those things

Swallow, toking we need these things

Glassy eyes thru veils of smoke

Choke on more than rope a dope

We getting high partying all night

Cuz Its been a while

I'm lying chile

I get high and you get drunk/

together we put on the funk/

We  break it down and party all night/

Cuz its been a while...it been a while/

Hate

It flows through my veins

Embedded in my head and there is no way to get it out

The challenge is never a challenge, until it becomes a challenge

I seeth with the demean you show my society

I gleam with the sweat of blood and tears

I hate that you don't see what needs to be done

for the world to be one

or at least function as such

I hate that you throw out misdirection

to leave me unprotected

thinking I was in the wrong

I hate that I still struggle,

Though I'm a Master of three

A counselor for free

And give up all for your conversation

I hate that I still need to search

I lack the birth

To give me cause to carry on

I hate that I feel behind

While everyone thinks I already bend that curve

The cliff exist

for me to fall off from

Ignore more from

And think that I'm okay

I hate that everyday news is carried away to satisfy the network sponsors

I hate that you don't see, cuz you choose to be

Blind

I hate that I still love you so much

I hate that we can't be friends

I hate that this happened again

I hate that, I have hate in my heart

Its time to depart and just tell you my dislikes

My resign

Headlights in the rearview

They coming fast

I hate careless drivers

Prizes.........

I ran to see if the prize was won

The hook never grasped the fluff of the bear

I'm the preacher of this sermon

I rebuke the unworthy vermin

Only to fall trap to the devils needs

I need for things

Illustrations help, cuz im visual

Your worthlessness leaves residuals

How do I get rid of it

Be rid of it

Give back to the innocent

Bend to it

Pause

What makes you feel dirty?

Brick wall stabilized

Fantisized between these thighs

Sarah Jones revolution will be televised

Mine has to be qualified

To feel that i am worthy

I write with my heart and see with my eyes

I write with my left but lose with my right

The ampedextrious have no need here

To be here...this belongs to a one armed bandit 

We only C here

Performance is not just a show

I see it everyday

Questioning the laws that protect us all

I do shit for people

Sometimes its illegal

But fuck it the world still turns

Doesn't it???

And i wake up alone........

Bright lights hide the shadow following in my wake

The sun breaks as the clouds run for cover

Filled in days to treat the blaze that the firefighter couldn't conquer

Bar hopping, show stopping good times

Plays and shows, bros and hoes

Lounges that make you skate your honor

Jumping out of planes, wings and thangs

Shots of H2O and absinthe

Ride that bull

Aphrodisiacs don't tell me what I want

But they give me what I need

Bleary eyed, shadow lined eyes reading deep into a sponsor

In life I trust

Queen bed to crush, all the forbidden answers

Playing blackjack chased with pickle backs

The fogginess don't lead to answers

Duck, duck, goose...your it

Then your not

And I wake up alone.........

Running away

The footsteps are resounding.....as they taper off

The trip down the stairs was intensified by the metal door.....

Disoriented I stagger to a stand.....

The warmth of the blood drips down my face

The saltiness of it....increases the anger

This is no stranger, but someone that should be trusted

Running into the yard I backtrack

Open the basement door hatch and crumble to the floor

2 minutes

I run up to the room that was mines for so long grabbing items that I can't really distinguish

Hoping I am as silent as I have been for so long

My heart rate won't slow and the adrenaline still has me feeling no pain

Back at the hatch 

Into the night......

Running.......................................

Breath labored, chest hurts

I continue to run

Not all who wander.........

The deafining display of life plays out

My actions have always spoken louder than words

Here my words will speak louder than actions

Causing chain reactions

Cause is still unknown

So I walk

Til feet are blistered, in search of a new adventure 

to challenege the one that's gone

Hopstopping up the avenues

Getting a kinder view of what has been lost for so long

Life happens throughout everything

Its the way of things

Perception is the cause

Walking the earth

Feeling mother natures birth and appreciating what it formed

This maze eludes me

Tries to fool me

Blocking me in, so I can't move on

Yet I have never stopped moving

The momentum of the desert sand 

Make's me cry for a mirage

Where am I?

Watching the ocean swallow the horizon

Who knows the timing?

 Or when we will be gone?

Pressure rains........

We come in alone and that is the way we go out

Never sure of the route or where it will leave us

That's why I talk through Jesus, cuz he's been present all along

NOT ALL WHO WANDER ARE LOST                                                                                                 

Imperfect Beauty

It lays at my shoulder so that a glance helps me to remember

Broken soul, painstakingly pieced back together

No matter how new it looks inside it is always broken

Tested through experience and vicarious assaults

Broken down to lose the heart fought for

The effortlessness is not so, it takes practice

Acting is not only a career, it's a need for people like me

Chaos reins within my heart, body and soul

Who I am on the outside is constantly judged 

Who I am on the inside is only known by me

The pieces of the jigsaw puzzle all come from different boxes

leaving the picture to never be solved

We are our own worse enemy only after the real one has left us to pick up the pieces of the life they ripped away

Bites to our hands to get the grip from us

Missing coins land on the engagement that was also lost

So we sleep on trains for your benefit of the doubt

Breaking bad while my face hit the concrete

I try to forget

Telling lies to keep my life......not realizing how destroyed it already has become

Step in my shoes and you might never wake up......

Ever break up

Ever come to the realization that your life is fucked up

Life goes on.......

Cherry Blossoms float off the branches with grace, to lay at rest

Beautiful in their fall......

Once they hit the ground the deterioration starts

 I do what I do, I say what I say, I make mistakes, I suffer from self esteem issues, I suffer from the neglect of nurturing love, I suffer through my pain, I suffer....but all you can see is beauty

All I see is Imperfection

Childhood games

I'm trapped inside us, trying to remember me

Someone said freeze

The whirlwind of love left jaded pictures 

How do I seperate it?

Hiding and seeking

All I see is you, where did I get lost?

The valley tells me that it has been discovered before

Entrapping the soul of the ones that were unsure

Leafing through memories leads to flashes of brilliance

The blinding light cause lightening strikes within my heart

The gathering of goods tells me this is over

Marco..............

Where are you?

The Polo is gone

Is the game over?

Manhunting these empty alleys of the heart in order to find love hidden under a car

Tag your it

Mother may I......grow strong in order to start anew?

The light is RED so I stay still, waiting for the go

I been ducking your goose 

in a silent game of musical chairs

Childhood games still plaging the grown

I don't want to grow up, I'm still a............

 

We were young  and now we are not........

So sit your ass down and take these cards, let me figure out when your bluffing

It's time to play the hand you were dealt

The reason some abort it

The liquor stains

Made a mess of things

and anger is awarded

You fight me still

my logic stills

and think of things that I avoided

Your right this way

but im left hand babe

doing crunches to avoid it

Why do you think i still

Invest in project ills

and no one that can afford it

I loved this one

Is the valley from which i defaulted

I sit here wonderin why

my friends dont think its causious

Cuz I drink to much or belligerent yell as such

You think this is avoidance???

Really?

Me???

This is the life that I need, that I see

and you don't know me for it...............

Sad I thought we were built that strong....

I apologize that I let my mind lead my heart into subordinamce

I let down another person

fool me once, shame on you...........fool me twice, shame on me

I guess I'm fucked

Im not built that strong

I thought I had the power to do what I wanted

You were never supposed to be here

but you were

I cant fathom the feelings that laced into the comfort of my chaise when you laid next to me with no question

Your life was here

I embody the fear

of leaving love at a doorstep

What can I do to make it true and show you I am for it

The lights glance over my lids shining the tears on my cheeks

Why is this the destiny I am given

When all I was given was you living

Beside me, to be beside me

To pick up where my heart beat

The beating slows

My heart is dying

I cant take this

Or replace this

Another weathering of  a storm

All I can do is cry.........

what are you doing??

I found love to late

The touch of you left me breathless

I'm not built so strong

I go over in my mind what lead to this and what carried it

and I know that I am wrong

Tis was not your decision

or what you envisioned...

Carry me into the sun

I will stand here proud of you

Lack of time with you

Makes me forget all that was wrong

But we still have Chicago.....

We were made from different wells

But we both could tell

This was something bigger than us

Your Irish breed and my lack of things

Made us equal in our storm

So I hold on

I hope you will too, but I know who is you

Enjoyment fills the song

No taking back what we decided in me or with you for what I was born with

I love you

But you will never feel the encompass of my passing

Here to there....

I need you stable dear...

to weather your circumference

What more can I say but I love you?

I judged you and you showed me what was wrong.....

I guess I'm consigned to being alone

because my heart left with you..........

My belief

Belief is moving
Because of you I can finally see
I thought that the hurt stopped my movement

You moved me forward, letting me know my reaction was stagnated
The ease of my pain left me contemplating
And then you were there

I know now that I am not only meant to be here
But to see here
Tie all loose ends and question

 Not spose to be here

My lord has felt the valleys i was lost in
Deal to be forced in
Letting me know.....it happens often

We are marching on to heaven
But beuatiful cant sing me that song

I grasp the last of the truth
what can I mean to you
Then i realize my accordance

It does not matter who disregard my name, or say yours in vain....
Im the reporter to record it
I see the fight
I have dealt with might
leave you to think that your subornate

Feel the art that over takes my heart and tell me chill we can move forward
The power in my body leads me to feel sorry
For all the things i never knew....

I want to move forward...help me find the way

Ignored

I stand at the front of the line

Ignored as if I can't be seen...

I have fought and taught....I can carry on

Resilience is a hell of a thing 

Sometimes it leaves you weak and unrecognizable

Who told you I was built that strong and would remain such

Life has dealt an unfair hand

But I have and will continue to play it,

Bluffing death 

Knowing I'm not two of a kind

I am one

I am stuck in hell 

Like a hermit stuck within It's shell

Hearing the call of the ocean 

But finding no water to quench my thirst

This is my devotion and my downfall

Stuck in a hell and no one can tell

Because My exterior shows otherwise

Its my best disguise

Hiding the uncertainty

What you tell me stays in me

What I need to tell stays within me

I can't bring myself to let it go

My brain can only handle so much

My body is facing the repercussions

Who knew chaos would be so fluid

Want to scream but like a tree in the forest 

Unsure if anyone would hear me

Or try to stop the free fall

Because they haven't yet

I doubt anyone will

 

Natural disaster

No stopping the rain

The feeling takes me back to the 200m

Needing that last push but finding nothing in my body to lead me there

Rounding the track, I feel the burst

How long will that contain me

It's getting tiring

Im a get mine

The smoldering look in your eyes

creates moisture

The lick of your lips silences me

Reflexes are just not the same

I have been weakened 

but there is no kryptonite in sight

The stammering shudders envelope me

I rise to the occasion

Float on the object of being as if I was walking on the moon

The senses switch to sensitive

You never did.......

The caress of emotions in a single breathe

Leaving me to catch my breathe

Sharp occurrences

The pleasure leaves me beside myself

Yeah, right there

Quakes rock the stillness of the wave

Bringing the break to the shore

I got mine, you better get yours.....

Hurry up, I have to go to work......... 

Betrayal

The hurt stagnates me

The unfathomable has occurred

Who was I to think that you were kin

Belief can be broken

In the fragilness of a word

You made your intentions clear 

There is no way around it

This dead end

Prevents me from moving forward

Hoping it was worth it

To search it

Smack it up, flip it, rub it down, and twerk it

Not much to talk about

You initiated  the occurrences

Does it make you feel better now??

Second is never best 

Toleration of mind fuck 

Unconscionable circumstance

Leaving outside high and dry

Pressure points

Pressing the collapse of relations

There is no going back

I been here before

Ode to the original females: Tom foolery, what happened to the real blue???

The bells still ringing our names

Yoshi, Esh, Beanie

You think the set don't recognize real?

We see the Crystal styling of Ceehy and the Teslie of our Disaster that it turned our blue dreams
Into Blue Stars

Flexing our entertainment, thru wintrop

Reflections of Africa House appearing on Utica
Or was that Ave . D

K.P tripping
Loews theater dipping
The 50's and 90's made it boss

Pool Hall swag,
Clouded glass
Cloud covered whats reported

Showcase swagger, was replaced soon after
With chatting on the cordless

You could reach the New York Raven
We Porno Thugging on  Loch
Chilling with the mafia set to Haitian
Cuz they was True Haitian

Squared you to pulp fiction

Yall never listened

Til the Lorkin lit up the park
Pushing the magnum
 Making the Dillinger jealous and wanting to glow

I can see the fireworks

Locing 6 points to see David

You wanna flag here
You came from no where

claiming unlawful sets
 The epitome of set tripping

I can G stone

The precious jewels of aquamarine

I still gleam, I got that glow

But my brightness leads to blues

What's fake stays there

why act like there's no fear

when I can mop you off your feet

Knuckle game tight, waking up the sleepy

Trying to talk your way out 

but your fear is squared

you have no place here
You got 6 minutes
Choose your 1st

Luckily the years dissolved it
Slow on the uptake leaves you unguarded
 

The barn yard, had no place for you

 We never excepted asses or bitches
 Try the next farm over

It no longer has a place for me

So move there

No peacing here

You have 6 seconds to get off it

Cuz I see gee see, off the travesty as the baby blue flies

White shirted up
Baby Blue
It was a first
 

Peace Loc,
Yo cuz what up

the crates used to lead me forward

The claim is laid

My g the same
Acting hard, pay the charge
 Question if you can afford it

Don't get it twisted

Retired but I'm always here

Heart pumps no fear,
You ain't leaving here
 Your fate could of been avoided

,Still would whip your ass

 to show you class

And how to act accordant
Do I have to show fist going up
 To show you what was on it

Fake breed fake

Theatrics of a performance
Never no talking

Cuz sometimes they still gotta learn

Shine like royal blue

 but I still s m see you

Cuz you aint never earned this OG stature

Now yall all playing games

with crayola

Sick of game's.....I win

Ignorance is not bliss

So what's your excuse?

You can throw fault and blame

Like the cause will change 

but it won't, cause the problem is you!

I don't provide faulty claims 

or lie on my name
acting childishly immature.....

Speaking out your mouth
As the whiff of shit saturates the air

Guess you talking out your ass...

Again

I can your ulterior motives

I speak the truth 

for you it's foreign

Popping the bubble
On the trouble and that four
Hops over you
Leaving me and all the pieces in a straight line

Monopolizing lights, failing to realize this is the clue to winning 

 Checkmate

I win, mother fucker 

Game over

Lost at Sea

I am alone
The depiction of god leaves me weary
This shit is scary, handling on your own

Provides me with weakness
My soul wont keep this
But is conditioned to weather all the storms

I fight for my freedom
from the challenges of my blood
I'm tired of being tired.....
Resigned with in myself to know

My demands are patient.....
I grow vacant .

I'M LOST AT SEA

Tears fall to sadness

Tears fall to sadness

who am i to be strong???

My body plays a different game\

Guess i was never built that strong

the pain traps me.....

makes my voice raspy

i don't want you to see my pain

I am here for a chosen second

I count my blessings and weather the storm\\

I cant continue to be so strong

to be alarmed\

to have faith and carry on

I'm resigned to failure

I didn't get to choose what my heart brings to you 

in order to write a song

I'm done......

I can guarantee that I will live cautiously

 but when it rains it pours...

Rain on me

Cuz i cant feel anything else

I''m emotionally stagnated

I concur to death i will refer it was gifted,

no matter how it hurts

Blind

The  ever lasting pain 

leaves me disarmed

Why do you think I can afford it

My mind is distorted

I walk this way and talk this walk

For reasons of avoidance

Blind to see a reality of someone that will never see euphoric.....

I write

to create balance in 

my psychosis

iLosing  focus......