The team

I tried to remain those pains...
Keep the word off sayings...but my sayings have brought me to a line i no longer want to preach
.we are in the deep
But the bullshit is now frying it off
No speak of them cost..just people that have been lost off the sytem..
Off the stysoff...reality shift forth
Holding a tinch forth
Realizing these dreams i give forth
I need to reexamine the blessing I give forth

Recognizing these dreams to give forth
Harboring these dreams that give forth.
Lack of insults

Boy change your life these are peacful insults
I need you to hear the balance within forth

I still be riding the dream we reforced blessings of your soul we can end on...get  perturbed  on....no body undestands its all about this road i came from #canarsie

Anger

I tried to remain those pains...
Keep thenword off sayings.but my sayings have brought me to a line i no longer want to preach
.we are in the deep
But the bullshit is now frying it off
No speak of them cost..just people that have been lost off the sytem..
Off the stysoff...reality shift forth
Holding a tinch forth
Realizing these dreams i give forth

Recognizong these dreams to give forth
Harborong these dreams that give forth. ..lack of insults..boy change your life these are peacful insults
I need you to hear the balance within forth
Basing blessings of your soul we can end on...get  perturbed  on....no body undestands its all about this road i came from #canarsie

Breaking back

Shattered
The pieces of me sparkling in the fractured light
bouncing off the surfaces
Trying to catch the light through brokeness

This is my circumstance

I was gifted with this affliction
To have to earn my position
To learn how to know these positions
To have to grow from dispositions

To have to know through superstitions
To have to show through realistic living
To still give a go of the cards dealt this christian

This ain't spades and I can't renege
I'll do this bid

Failure is easy
Success takes fighting

Each time this body feels as if its dying
Brings more enlightening
I know im surviving
So I have to keep trying

Have to keep trying

My mind and heart divided

My faith and soul divided

My  isolation and alone is not subsiding

But im fighting
I will continue fighting

I will continue to grow and evolve
Til i reach my resolve
This is about you not me you have to know

I believe in yall

I break
But I break back
Hoping my being is in tack
Mind still attached

I find pieces of me missing but I  break back

Its a trap
but it knows
I won't fall for it
So
I may break but it leads me back to my place

I always break back

Mother

My mom is better than your mom. I love and adore me some her. She tolerated my craziness from the beginning...I was ready for the world..I tried to walk out with the umbilical cord curled around my neck...breached..emergency c-section...lima bean, fetus shaped...my dad immediately nicknamed me beanie. Then they found out I had sickle cell anemia...they both had traits...I was the only outlier that had it..in my WHOLE FAMILY
Every hospital stay she never left my side, she pushed me for greatness and that is what I live for now...for my mom to be proud..
If I was in the hospital for 4 wks so was she, new treatment never leave my side, crisis put me in an epsom salt bath, massage my legs until the pain went away, there thrpugh transfusions, sirgeries, crisis, the only person I let cry with me (because this disease is crazy and though I look okay this invisible disease is killing me), deal with the constant stupid measures I use to cope...be there..really be there....I love you mom..horribky....i love mom..you don't love mom..whats wrong with you
#popholdingitdown

Fear

I fear an online presence
I fear online reference

I feel my protection sliding
Its been embedded in me to speak my time with my mind in...

Whom I have time with

The belly of my beast I can have no judgment or any signage

I paid my dues......this consignment

But did I pay my dues?

For me to be even with paying my dues?

No money can compensate
For the hate and rebates
Given to those who escaped
The knowledge of trying to evade
Our constant set tripping, obnoxious living
disrepectful still being disrepectful choking you out kind of living

Choking you out kind of living
Poke you out kind of giving

Laying hands of forgiveness for those who
I fear know truth of
I fear want severance because they know truth of
Wanna hide from us cuz I'm real and know the truth of

My knuckle game is sick
You would tell the truth cuz

Hold my life
Like you plan to sue for
No question in my mind
I am the needle in my suture

Holding my hands
Praying forgiveness for you more

I am resilience
What do you live and prove for

My words are....scattered dreams...mirages epitomizing the emotional outburst of the truth

Live it true and let my words live and build in you

Don't speak

In regards
I hold no regards
The pain that ensues is featured in these cards

I tried to subdue the realness in these scars

Fighting for freedom within these bars
My souls trajectory in these scars

Making me face what i live in
In these cards

Unsure of what the valley held
I fight to be invisible
My home land indivisible

The way of action
Non-equival

I cry at night cuz its
Now more quizzical

Balance

Am I my sisters/brothers keeper
Balancing act leading to sometimes falling deeper

Hard to reach ya

Harder to seek ya

Having to be the test, a student and the only responsible teacher

For my life

This game is real
it's the going feature
My time to rebuild
is a growing feature

Being completely honest and real is my going feature

A gift and a curse

So i rehearse
To reimburse
Living with a curse
That drives me to dirt

Continually drives me to dirt
Trying to drive me into dirt

You must of bumped yall heads
You already know
Caskets don't come with bunk beds

Just endure
The life you want to live for

"Cuz chile, life for me ain't been no crystal stairs"
But the hughes
Had profound views

I gotta get around to
Getting around to
To get around too

Following the voice that seemed like it bought me this round 2

Questioning the light I was ground to
The phoenix arised to
The fate of my condition that i have been
Putting my life through
Embody the sound groove
Hoping to stay around to

My friends are my future
Its great to have known, grown and finally knew ya

Reflecting on a life
I been on grind to
Became refined to
Learning the most of what I had to evolve to

To be here, present, past and future
To present a future
To grow and tutor
To be low and seeing to da sky

I get by
Using get by
Hoping that the holy spirit has gotten a sit by

Life hitting like a semi

Why do doves cry
Must be the same reason that love dies
Love for me

I been tried
Life for me

I will cry

I will die

Mortality for me is a gate to the new life i live by

Nobody understands the inside
Making me feel so inside
Keeping my thoughts harbored up inside...

Trying to keep the balance up inside

A broken scale always....

Needs....

Balance

Women you are beautiful

Trap queens now everybody wanna be trapped queens
My black is beautiful but you a trapped queen
Not knowing that your quality exudes and if your boundaries were cooled you would become a tool of a force to be reckon with

A force of the life streams that provide dreams knowing that you can make dreams success
Girl you are blessed

See the future
Become your future

Wants and needs jeopardizing
Your vision of yourself should be mesmerizing
you have to depend on yourself to become from within mesmerizing

You have to want for yourself to be mesmerizing

The media ensues and abuses the psychi of who we are
so that we question who we are
vanity is at the forefront and everyone is now judging who we are

Making us into juggling who we all are

Impersonal judging
But you my queen are beautiful

Don't let society tell you that your not beautiful

Don't let anyone tell you that you are not beautiful

No quick fix with the slice of a knife

You bugging

Women you are beautiful

A moment of unclairity

The battle remains
I can still spot game
Embodying this frame
Leading to distain and a distain for the pressure that the dark persist
Pressure vs pipes...opps....did i say too much
Care too much
Be here too much

Fuck you

Get used to it

Gang related

Gang related
So what I became, lived and give as a connoisseur of blue, it has held, upheld and holds my truth.

Helps me speak to our youth and reside in the mistakes i made so there mistakes are more tame...requiring there lives to lead to more change

This is the game....revoking fame as all i want is to save the youth, show and prove even when you fucked up in life you can still be that one that showed and proved.

Nothing dictates or narrates the person you become....
I know I have won

I have never been dumb or dumbed out
Reckless sometimes with my mouth
But that's neither here or there
Experiences lead you here and there

Use your street smarts to formulate plans
develop book knowledge
We can't all go to college but its no reason to go back to the plantation where no one can be pronounced or pronounce there feelings with words. It perturbs me to see the potential slide down with that everlasting shot of henny, that zip of give me or hanging on some shots of envy

Write your story....we all have one

See your future homie...so you can have one

-Davinna

Regardless of life

They say each one teach one
ILearn to deduce and keep on
What to reach for
What to breathe for

Yet my familiarity with breathing is becoming constricted
These issues need evicting
And there is heavy resistance

Growing older, same shit diffrent toilet
It's abhorrent
Why cant everyone just learn and be up on it

Mental barriers
Eliciting seclusion from self
I'm scared

I have beared that poison fruit from the tree of knowledge
I am not as soild
as others may think I am

Through this war these battle shoes
Have had the blues
So much that all this time
I zigged and zagged and it has pursued

Wrinkling my confidence
Belittling and latching on to my rockiness
Not allowing a sliver of confidence
To push me where it can be certain
Nothing is certain
I remain hiding behind this curtain

How can that be when I'm still learning
Discerning
How to reach up from this
How to recover from this
Why I have to keep learning like this

I pray to my abba
I despise that word otherwise known for papa
It brings me problems and i5m trying to be proper

My anger is building as i type
Some shit just aint right

Then I remember this kind of life
It seems I can never repel from this type of life
I can never give in to this type of life

I will continue on my path
Regardless of life....

Dove

The ascension to the truth is never above anyone
Sun sparkling off the water,
reflecting the light
Showering the love of the world

It is now that being here is demanding the attention of whom we are needed to become
needed to be done
for this to be won
so we can please...1?????????

The lonely dove sent to carry the message gazes down upon the flock
Taking heed to make sure the shepherd is protecting

trying to ensure that there is protection of the worlds hanging still in the air
Real in the air

Measuring the love in the chill of the air
The thrill in the air
Waiting for the message to be seen by those below

Message

The doorway

These times hold signs
I can no longer afford to ignore

He's been standing, waiting at that door....
feeling my hunger, wanting to give me more
Hoping what he has in store won't push me over the threshold

How can who I was, am and still have not become equated to his own soul
Self-doubt
of the habitually conditioned
I been told my future, why is this different?

Yet his hold won't relinquish
The voice in my head telling me

I NEED JESUS

I need to see this....
through
I coudl be through....
but all i can do is stand in the doorway fearing that he knows EVERYTHING.....

I do, did and have done
so i may sometimes lose but he is telling me the devil has not won
screaming in my head, I am not done
screaming in my head
I am his son

I gave up everything for you

"Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil"

Now come child, take those last steps and I will welcome you with open arms......

For ever, ever?

It's evergreen
These ever greens, trees built through course roots
Hiding the turmoil within the color of the leaves
Blocking the eyes that seem to forever teem

Tears waiting in the corners
trying not to be seen

They told me it was a sign of weakness.....
A sign of needing, I was taught to revoke such meaning
from emotions thats feeding
My head and my heart
I still lay in the dark
regressing from the light

In order for me to get right in this life
Recognize that without judgement he gave his life!!!
For me to choose, for me to abuse, the sins that repent
leading me to begin again

leading me to him again

He is relentless in his love
I am relentless in this self hate,
so i escape medicating
this faith exist because I cant look at him in the eyes and reveal my wrongs...to him or myself

He Beckons......

He beckons
Yet my fear keeps me at bay
The past truths
of my past youth
hauntingly turning me away

The fear grows
Shuttling me further from the truth
There is glory in being humble too

Humble who
How can I seek his glory when I reek of that cloying fruit?

SIN

Condemnation, repenting for my mind to continue playing the things that I've done, will do or lack thereof

A child of Abba because I'm so scared to call him father because of what mine has done

How can I be his daughter with what I have done?
How I have shunned?

No matter how far I have come...
I still sit at the starting line....waiting

Young lives

This young life is here to save these young lives
The battle raging within ends when I can talk to these youth within these young lives

Round about the cycle grows
His glory shown because he is in the know

These young lives
These young lives
Elohim put me here to reposition these young lives
To cause an effect in these young lives
To give meaning to these young lives
and
I thrive and an renewed in these breaching acrobatics
I can't lose the traction or feel im overreacting to save these young lives

So I keep renewing the bitter hurt of time long past so that he can continue to lead me
I am his receiver

Pick up the phone!

Who's calling?

Jesus
........so you can continue to speak for these YOUNG LIVES.

The beach of solitude

The waves softly hit the hull as the sun rest glistening off the mast

A quiet exist here

It’s measured as if intent to allow your focus to drift

Taking in the freshness of the air

The white sand facing the water that calmly laps at the beach as if daring to come forth with the tide

I too own this quiet within my soul and only those who have been shipwrecked can hear it

Allowing the things many don’t appreciate that surround us and are always around us to be seen

It’s more of an essence within a spirit

A hidden gem trapped in coal

A frozen heart

Waiting on ice to melt

So I continue to listen intently

Eyes hidden behind shades so you can’t see the windows to an abyss wrapped in experience

Trapped in experience

Reacting off of experience

The waves continue to lap and I exhale

Bought with the blood of our ancestors

The sun rises and all I can see is this land stained with the blood of our truth

The blood of our youth...
The struggle of our crew
the tears of them too

Kidnapped from a life known, mind hijacked from your own dome....

So different but not presenting anything but the same difference

Stuggling to survive in a 9 by 5 slot on an torturous ocean journey
Too many coming through the ER dead on gurneys

We did not do this to ourself yet we do this to ourselves

Bleeding fingertips staining the white of the cottons bush....work fassa for massa

Waiting on lines encouraging lives of 200 bucks of jordans.....
Buy fassa for massa

The hanging life of Emmit Till
This rapping life got mad appeal
This is life but....
I can't even broker a deal
The media is life.... its not soul for real
Rosa aint get up so we can sit in the back still

Mentality grew to fail because so many fail to grow

Opression still exist it just doesn't sit on your back as blatant as it was being carried through the dust storms of the farm up to the house....

where you had to know you were a nigga and negate the state of thinking on your own.

We still negate the state of thinking on your own
We need to dress and act like this because...i was told we need this all

Idiots want to embody the common core of trapped life yall
They trapped like dogs
React like dogs
Take aggressive stance so that it seems okay to cage men and women....

Just like dogs......

They seperated the segregated telling me when to eat, sleep, relate or release

God grant me some peace
But everyone wants there piece of the American dream

To be on America's team
Even while being beaten and raped to build America's dream
Firehosed to believe in America's dream

This fountain is not just for coloreds only
This is a worldly journey

When will the world begin to continue this journey

The struggle of our ancestors depend on this journey

and we owe them

Dont throw stone's if you live in a glass house

Stones being thrown...it's a fucking glass house

So i been  riding out on it...
I rupture these waves before it
Gets me down to wait  up on it

I simmer down
Cuz no weight can reform it

You throw like a bitch
You think im rich
But im that bitch

That reads as safety elix
I know fight and what I want to forget

Im reconciling
I forgive it
I should live it
I guess I live it
My heart in full zip

My mood on full rip
My time...pursuing it
Negro
I'm still doing it

Acting more than true to it...
Get your savior on

Cuz...
I am still born and still reborn
I cut a way out the fabric to still be torn
I sew my way to the fabric to still be on

this the kind of shit
I can't be on

My tribe
Its no dealing in the percussions...
It's war that this is covering
War that this is becoming
The war that there is no battle on but summing

But we need no MORE OF BITTER STRUGGLING

I'm  here are you
No shine and proof
No other pursuit

Hallowed be thy name
He rose again
Yahh not for real showing him..hallowed be thy name

Withholding him...that was my fault hallowed be thy name

Be this game,
Be that range
Settle to be this.....lame

Dancing on inequalities
Hallows be thy name
Im forced again
To bring force again

I still get my norishment when not traveling in sutures

I ride in my truth up
I continually ride this truth up

I fight for truth for...
never matters than only when you fall

other than when you fall
Gallivanting in end procuitto and grand renegro....
grand tarismo....
im a stand charismo....
Cuz.i.am.unforgivable
but its drunking luv.....we be all night

I.wont forgive you

B and c .....
.

Where I'm from

Where I’m from is not to be taken lightly
It gives me the fighting spirit I have been born from
It makes me remember what I was torn from....

Let me explain

Where I'm from is heartbreaking and desolate

I used to rep with it
Give life and breath to it

Where I'm from the extension of a punch to a face had me embrace the truth of my youth the blue of my booth the square of mine too
Star of David not making sense but making sense
To a way to win
A grown up truth I should never had to see
A place no one should ever have to be

Physical and mental abuse
it’s why and how I can reach the youth how I can preach to you
Why I can preach to you

How I've reached my truths
why I feel the use

Where I come from I was gang related
Ceanie flipped sides to rip tides
Holding a gun to his life
To them lives
Bopping and weaving to get to this life

Where I’m from no fucks are given 
Its the way we sinned in....the way we sin in
Condemnation forgiven but it’s the doubt that I still live in

Where I’m from my sickle cell was a hidden truth

I hid from you
I hid to prove

Where I’m from does not dictate who I become

Who I was once
how success was won

Where I’m from
Grades don't equal money 
the sky is never sunny and I’m getting grazed by bullets that are coming for me

Where I’m from 
Dance hall queen rained in the range
thug life had me

forced me to take the olive branch of change

My sister getting locked up had me change
Me raising babies not born of me had me change

Where I’m from I try to forget 
But that don’t mean shit memories never die. ..I have died many times
But the fire awakes me
it paralyzes me and shakes me
It makes me turn around so I wont forsake me

Where I’m from Abba has won
It took a long time but given his son
Was not a pun
So be grateful for this crazy hor

Yes im a hor....you can’t ignore cuz i pimp and traffic in dreams

I need my team
So germaphobic i need an iv of pisces
Aries laying on my dreams
Things are never what they seem

Where im from I was told im never gonna be ish
Never have supreme wit
Never have a man want to be to me……it...

Where im from i used to water it down
No one could take me at 100 percent but i flip this brick and then flip that ish

I knew what trap housing was before it became the ish

I knew what running drugs was before it became legit

I knew what turf wars was...the guts of dudes laying with my clique

Im talking too much

Let the closet hold the bones
But i can’t be at home and 
Have these youth grow if i can’t show where and how far I can go
Where i had to go
How i am forever damaged because of where i had to go

Where im from the people are dripped in bitter past

with there bitter ass

Where I’m from
everybody want to be hood rich
get a hood chick you can never be really real with

Where I’m from I’m spose to be dead
Im not spose to wear red
Im not spose to have said

Where im from...shit..i was on the block with some lorkin 22 grip
A blade on my tongue tip and a blunt on my full  lips

Trying to stave off the reality of real ish
The legality of it
To become a butterfly from the capterpiller

Where im from i will never forget. Won’t ever forget

wont ever

Forget.....

Where im at is twisted around and safety sounding
but i made my rounds in order to be here to show you

you can be here to show you
you can be here

To put you on to how i got here...where im from made me this
Its crazy but i have risen to it

Can you?

Where I came from

This where i came from
I got this name from
ringing bells to a title i came from

I wont put your name on, but the beef in the sreets causing me not to reach the boundaries of my goodness
Needs some escape from
Yall the asses we came from...
to elect these dudes on a search to just be coherent...this where i done came from
this shit is foolish
shit is ghoulish
to have to type for my life so you can do this....fuck it
make it on your own

Life....

Life tactics
Remaining drastic

I prep everyday to live fantastic
No earthly bounds
All sudden moves...
I speak my truth
I used to have the blues

Symbolic symbolization
When my book is done you can read where I came from
Who I got this name from....
Where I got this name from
Why no one knew anything but this name that came from.....
Who was my day 1's

Who still present to be my day 1's

The struggle in the darkness
That tried to precede the light that I came from....
been raised on
Got my shape from
There was a whisper in my ear, I now know where it came from

Abba

That whispered in my ear that I  can reform
Get my dream on
and conquer every mountain I dreamt a dream on

From lost to darkness to the crazy I came from
I was raised from
I had to get away from
The streets almost ended my life
But I never forget where i came from

Tried to rule me out
Cool me out
Take my life in your hands so you could push and pull me out

Of my destiny
Writing is a test for me

To inform others that even though the past is the past
The palette was a backdrop to this sky blue
These skies are blue
Given you a moment looking through the eyes of this woman who had the blue's

Has the blues
Systematically trapped in them to
It lives in you
will always live in you
Will go to the throngs of shame just to continue to live in you

But

Im a survivor and the devil is a liar
Im a sign of water and fire
I can only move higher

He gives me desire
To preach and teach my testimony every hour
I will preach my testimony every hour
I will live and not count the hours
We only get one
I will live and breathe the hours

Good, bad or ugly...I will see these hours and raise you one

I dunno

Society stuck on a travesty of blame
Blame is the same though its not the same...yall protesting causes but its not the same....you have no idea of what the underlying layer is

The thinks that can slay a kid
Give a bid
Be thankful it didn't  kill a kid
Im still doing bids

So angry that you cant think further than you
What does that prove
What force can that move
Let me put on my tap shoes

To tell all of yooouuss
That all of youusss
Are unworthy for it
I need this current
To wash away the surfboard of my vetting
Why is there no rejection
Why cant we be lost stars..subtly projecting

Opression is not spoken of its found
So when this round causes sounds that make you hit the ground
I wanna say sorry...but I too hit the ground

I wish this were humorous and i could say
Just kidding

Fuck you this the life im living...a life that became imprisoned...with blue thoughts and sick thoughts.....its not my religion.... .that bought me back from the prison....i know my worth but they broke it down in the prison

This how im living....wondering how you living to give some thoughts of forgiveness
The thoughts that are endless that im reconciled to hear...my...dear...oh my dear...we are lost stars

Cover me

These crystal stairs
Cracking under poignant stares
I get there..may end there
to send a kite and forgive there
Its a habit of being in here

My thirst for life resignating within here

The rush of life
Leading to a portion of undiscovery

I need you now cover me....

Its a big deal so comfort me

I need you to seek and discover me

How can i rebound when you won't cover me

It happens through the tears
Its a product of the years
I still abstain the tears
Yet i still  break down in tears

Cover me

Time

Sometimes I think it's time
Only to find that the stars have not aligned
The present needs to take the time
Its saying i need to take this time
Its not like before it will take some time

Contention revision
20/20 fucked up vision
Living for living
Giving cuz I'm god forgiving
To less of the living

I don't even know sometimes
how to feel about feeling sometimes
I don't want to feel sometimes
Sometimes I don't feel sometimes

But I feel these times..
They reveal.....these times
It's  getting real in these times

It's so for real in these times

LOOK AT ME

I debate within my scape
Within this gait
See my face

No but really see my face

Our race and our place makes me angry
I'm fucking angry
Lost stars

Who are we???
.
Trial and error
My trial and error leads me to believe its been trials and tribulations
Leading to the hating

I don't give two fucks
Why don't you give a fuck
Why doesn't the world give too much
Why doesn't  the world give enough

I give enough
I give these fucks
I embody a life that gives too much

Silence

Cause i gave enough

Im done.....

Standing by idly

When will society
Not stand by idly
While youngish is getting violated
When fights can go to jumping collaborations

No one seizes the day
No one shows them a way
No one has the balls to step up and say
We must surely change

This is the change
We need this change
It stops the ways of the days of our future
Im bleeding and  need sutures

Turning down my eyes from the form of medias
But the form can remove you
Make you question you too

How did we get here
Living this hard
He had a dream and though it was seen it was never seen and we still living this hard

God developed a being that can be this hard
Bred in community is opportunities
That need opportunities
That grieve the opportunity
Not giving in our god....

This toast of a repenting life
This blood of jesus in the form of bringing thru christ


Confusion of life
What can we make it
Where can we take it
I'm feeling naked
Who bit the apple
Who's riding for battle

Wait no need my shoes of peace are on
 the armor needs to be on fleek...i hate that word but its needed in My speak

To fight the urge to re-disburse
The life of my father is worth the worth
Lets be worth the work
Lets be cause the work

Lets give all for worth.......

Building blocks while fishing

I try to refine the design of what my building blocks exist of...trying to imbibe the moments to transist of...exist in transcendence of....I beat my brow and know this is what I will always consist of.

Trying to change my ways
but my ways still stay and claim the guilty truth of my repenting
Sinning at a speed lost in a tale the tail of hoping I could just be off
Everyone's minds

Paranoid much?

I find I am still completely lost but travel on the path few have chosen.
I hear the loathing and unfolding of a thought not thought out to observationally spot...
to render this/it/her/my plot like a novella
I tell ya
I will tell ya
I truly tried to tell you
I am rude and crude so i can tell you

I need backing and tracking...my mind is forever in traction
forever reacting
I'm forever in acting...
out...

Casting out
Still feeling doubt
Still feeling without
Still feeling doubt

Fish of abundance none are worthy,
baited....here me out
My line has not moved
Who's the safety net?

Time is dwindling and I'm trying to get by
So in order to forget about this current circumstance I'm on my way to Dubai
Or Singapore
I need it more because running is easier than facing a truth
Facing a brute
Facing the thoughts that currently have me unscrewed
Making me think that I'm the fool

No one else to blame...
I was a fool
I have been used
But I am never and will never be a fool
I'm crazy not stupid

The tools of my work may be berserk
But my show hasn't yet been canceled or dismantled
Trying to be an example....
No one is any longer an example

I fear no one hears me
Fighting dearly
Fuck the weary
The battle is only beginning

Trust the weary
Entrust the weary
Lemme tell you a secret
The quiet ones are the ones to watch out for...

Better run Better run...this ain't boggle.
Shaking it up is no longer of value
There are no words to display my light
You only see me through night shade goggles

I've had my doubts too
I can't live without you
I can disband and live without you
But don't want to live without you
Still single so my love is about you

Abba

Too many false starts
And lost hearts
Lost stars within these lost bars and I have come too far
You better be lost far....

I want to come home....
The disown may make you think my feelings are ingrown...
I see the end zone....
I long for that big home
Picket fence and 2.5 own

God is good all the time cause when I'm alone
I'm never alone
He never leaves me alone...
Ever be alone
Forever his own
In Christian homes.....
I fight the fact it's not in flesh...my temple is his home...he coddles me on his own

He never disowns
He makes me withhold nothing about his own spirit of truth
I know the truth but am scared and don't want to acknowledge the truth
A woman with an intense stare, real hair and not a real care...because I do what I want
lets get real here... cuz.i tend here..tell on and showing that I live and love here
Absolutely.love here
But my bait still on the line ..
No more casting on this line...my pole is cracked.....ill just buy the fish

Therapy for whom???

Therapy
My legacy
Xhanging minds
Is therapy

Didn't think it be this way
Not the undeveloped me
I could never see this day
See this way

Therapy
It has eveloped me
Taken over my life til my friends are hurt with jealousy

Constantly working in secrecy
I hold all the secrets indefinitely
Infinitely
Clients pose all these questions to insist in me.....
I question sometime
Cuz i'm only starting to see the best in me

It used to worry me
Till it encouraged me
Wrapped me.in a warm blanket thoroughly

I go through life thoroughly
I need me to further encourage me...

I used to be abused, still have an attitude
my writing is my gratitude
I can never be mad at you because god allows my heart to be light
That's why it's pouring tonight

My coming to realizations made the angels cry, the Thunder cry
And the lightning singe my mind

The rain still fell....
Danced, swinging from a chandelier

I threw up this blurb

I take the dress off
negros repressed of
simply neglect of
what is real to regret on.....
it's the scheme of things
the reem of things but no matter how fast the light travels darkness is always there first

No need to be

I'm on fire

I'm on fire
Its not what you desire but its worth my empire..
The shadowed domes we call home
Penitentiary is what we call home
Why can't the boundaries of our environment remain zoned

Its situblown....
Population who has no homes
Shit in the back
Let me rewind back on the new jim crow laws that are now intact

Nobody has your back and 1964 voting rights estinguished and phazed off the map
But you tell me this trap is this trap
And this gak might move back and my trigger finger is on the trigger and I can't pull it

Use your knowledge for real shit.
Its real kid...we did a bid kid...trying to inform you of the art of playing war but you saw only a fraction of the piece I'm a fraction of the beast he made me able to hide...come and seek

My lord.

He has taken the wheel he knows the deal and the ideals i spill

I'm a make you know it dont seem real but it is indeed real

Let's stop being statistics

Let's test our transitions....lead others to real shit
..shit they can build with...
Lets build it....

If you build it they will come

Who's in??!!

I write because....

I write because its not right
This is not life
Institutions lacking insight
Incapacitated finite
Systems needing a rewrite

Cutting off the oxygen

I can't breathe.........

Right......

Exhaling the fumes of the classes
Capitalistic socioeconomical travesties
Right in front of our faces

Bounded by the bondage of repression..of the oppression instilled in our brains and running deep within our veins
only to be shaded by the materialistic...unrealistic mirages of a false truth of what success looks like

Im confused
Walk around selfishly involved
social media revolved
While problems remained unsolved
Our communities dying but no one wants to be involved or freaking evolve
So we can evolve and stop being slaves
To a nature imprinted on us through the lens of a camera

The mark of the beast is here

No one......

This life waits for no one
I encountered and am done

With the false pretenses of being whole
I need........my soul
Indeed to
Hold

Id rather come up short than be bamboozled

I can't be true to
A person that questions as much as you do

Or have use to
Something that's on the move too

Harboring off this boat
I could but I wont...be good but I wont
Its okay i'm up now

The A train from brooklyn

This train sheds hope to...but its running local...I try to be vocal....but that shit usually hurt you.
Desert you...it don't deserve you...it can never deserve you

Rocking off the base of the slow down...this train won't slow down this train is so now....this game is so now...the drain of the words I am saying are so.... how....so go on how?

You know how
Bro brow....singing no
how did this lead me to know how.....

Listening....

The drum of the bum and the song of that one mixing this is mixing
this is loves
on a train and im bout to be remiscing....

reflections of a tattoo

I used to have the blues
life is letting me be aright
see alright
tear off this cardigan to ride in the wind and be alright

i see my life...its a fickle life in a fickle strife
to be there twice when you indeed one life
proactive none reactive
individually
resist in action

I'm wired
transpired
hoping to glance higher
to plan higher

to reach the debt of my love and be equal cause...cuz....yes it does......cuz..its still because cuz.....
such a good kisser
but are we all lost stars...

i think we are

I need love

Loyalty
Trust
Infatuation

I aint hating but the value of who you are speaks bars
Never be scared of who you are
Never let the volume be so hard
Never let anyone tell you who you are

I seek a love so deep that it would envelope in me and get together in me just so I can get together with me

Waiting on something to behold in
Something golden
I wrap myself to uphold him
But right now I need more than jesus
More relieving
More believing that someone out there will Chan my believing
I guess im grieving for a love lost, never been sought, never experiencing the thought...kind of love

So I wait for it
Pray for it
Spend a day being awake for it...
Guess I need to go to sleep

Falling forward

I'm confused
I feel used
I keep on falling and pain ensues

Pains in you
Pains not in you
Pain is the same it embodies truth

Tripping over current events
My current sense
leads me to
Hesitance

No one to pick me back up
Everyone to pick me back up

My testimony lives a life of its own
I fall skinning my knees
Hoping he sees that I am falling forward

My mistakes led to guilt, anger and resentment

This is what my kid self sent from past to my future

I will last
But I need to get pass
The object of it being not my fault
Not at fault
The savior is Abbas and I praise for fault

No matter the experience or the given or the living my father shows me new beginnings when endings are ending because even when I fall....its forward

Im a voyeur
Im living forward
Because it was already written
Sins forgiven never think you dont deserve what you were given

Christ has a design for our life so listen

As I fall forward I result more...let anger just coast more and let no one have the power to make me resort more...

To the old one, this old bum has beanie in the background talking  shit and more hun..its a war son

No need for a gun but I think I been shot by the truth
Shot through the roof
Shot by what's true and then I trip
but im falling forward
so no need to relapse in the  sweet sap of your fake relations

The devil been hating
I just didnt think you would friend him and amend him
Leave your soul exposed to get up in him

It doesnt matter
Im falling forward
My sins always have been forgiven
Its the life I live In
Its just the beginning

Mark my words its just the beginning...

Im still falling forward

You deserve more

Violated
Our millennial feel violated
That round causes sounds that's annihilating
No value saving
Cuz if you get down
putting them down
their minds go to annihilation

No thoughts of future
Been told they aint never gonna be shit
Never have supreme wit
Product of environment
They acknowledge in illegal enterprising shit

There is no one to teach them a way
Reach them today
Living in a cycle of misery
That's where they stay

No future reference
Its the now they protecting
Not wetting the police presence or the snap cherish of a benefit card
Its  been, still, remains living this hard

Raised in fams that don't do nothing but hustle the streets
So why can they think they can beat the same cycles to become free
Embody all the me and build potential on it

I could of saved for college but these waves and tru religions are not my religion and its what I was taught so thats now my religion

Blasphemy

Until we decide to show the truth without discouragement
The truth of encouragement
We will all be stuck on discouragement

Resentment of a time past causing pain
but it cant hurt you if you let it go

Let the world know

We are strong and though our kids are now growing up wrong
Because kids became mothers and there daughters became mothers and we choose to shower them with everything you didnt have

Creation of trash because they dont know what to work for, to be a work hor to fucking deserve more than a fendi bag and a bad attitude...oops I meant michael kors and a bad attitude....you have to want to grow and discern more...

No great mood comes
The devil has won but surely the devil has not won
Youth listen, your paths lay unwritten. ..write something great

If you used your street sense in defense

You would become a pretense of a force to be reckon with
I reckon with tools you can become the builder of your own dreams
To realize what in life is of importance...why doing shit one way makes more sense

I pour this essence of my thoughts and the internal war being fought....to teach what naught be a broken thinking that these youth caught to become debilitating diseases

Yall need jesus but religion is banned in schools...