Im not the typical shorty
Many dudes, yeah I be fooling
All in my ish cuz of my unnatural seclusion
Wondering what Im doing
Who i'm screwing
or just eluding
Never been in love, found out shit is just for fools and
I feel like the whole world is on my shoulders
Never no trick, dont do favors cuz im no douja
Your like paper I can fold ya
When I walk by dudes just wide eye, like they was awaken by the foldgers
Stress getting me
Depression aint the only thing that be eating me
So do you honey
Cuz im a def do me
You c me do me
Im a be me, scuze me
Do me dirty, okay boo you gonna c
Cuz I do
If I was your wife than i stand by you
Hard times too
Cuz cant nobody see you just as I do
Yall never find a love like this, you wasted to much time boo
You took something i cant get back you wasted too much time boo
It was mutual if i beat alot know what I do to you,
To prove to you, to groove with you,
cant get enough of soothing you
Say im playing a game but why would i fool with you????
Compassion needed
More and more now i feel depleted
Love is love boo
But your not the only one that need it
To breathe it
Knew you was my heart cuz you eat it it
Took my innocence matter fact you know what nooka keep it
Stop clocking me
Cuz in your dreams i know you still watching me
Thought you was bout it babe so why you still jocking me
No apologies or copping pleas
No more licking, please get off your knees
Knew it take a man to understand my street philosophies
Hesitation, action came before I contemplated
What you took for me cant be priced for compensation
Learned the lesson
Dont trust no one, keep em guessing
No matter who it is go no further than caressing
Thats why they wetting
Cuz im too real for them to C
Maybe one day, I'll find a man as real as me...........
Sunday, July 29, 2012
You got a long way home
your fancy footwork cant take you there
You got a long way home
your fancy footwork will never get you there
You took me higher than I could ever fly
Twisted works, clouded my sky
Invested much and lost it all
Your tender words
don't mean shit at all
A common thief, stole my heart
I guess I'm now a broken part
Imperfect beauty set the pace
You may be leading but i win this race
Tears leave stains on promises
Next time I'll use my common sense
Hurt me hard with softer claims
Time to pick up and start again
You got a long way home
your fancy footwork cant take you there
You got a long way home
your fancy footwork will never get you there
Clouded haze, my j is near
Reiterating no need for here
elaborate tunnels peripheral sound bites
I'm missing home......
M missing home
The distance grows when you talk
I'm not stupid you silly punk
I got the keys and the drive is all right
Hope your feet ain't cold
Your walking home.....
Dancing around the issues here
You cant hide behind your beer
Self medication gives you no fear
But your far from home
long way goes
You got a long way home
your fancy footwork cant take you there
You got a long way home
your fancy footwork will never get you there
All we can do is wait it out
and the truth will come out
Dont believe his tainted words........
truth is the only form of hurt
I stuck by and kept you near
Im a fool, cuz you left me here
Tried and tried and made excuse
your talk is dryer than the vermouth
Priveluge to even get entwined
Stupid me for wasting time
Hold is broke so no more games
Heard enough its all the same
All I can do is wait it out.............
A big girl now
I cast my doubts
Dont believe I felt for you
You just lost a treasure boo
Hiding blind
no need to delve
welcome to your form of hell
Hit the bricks cuz they dont sing
Your empty promises and bells dont ring
I put you hear so you could win
You will never touch this soul again
All you can do is beg and plead and hope i give you mercy please
All you can do is wait it out
and the truth will come out
dont believe your tainted words......
my truth is your only form of hurt
and the truth will come out
Dont believe his tainted words........
truth is the only form of hurt
I stuck by and kept you near
Im a fool, cuz you left me here
Tried and tried and made excuse
your talk is dryer than the vermouth
Priveluge to even get entwined
Stupid me for wasting time
Hold is broke so no more games
Heard enough its all the same
All I can do is wait it out.............
A big girl now
I cast my doubts
Dont believe I felt for you
You just lost a treasure boo
Hiding blind
no need to delve
welcome to your form of hell
Hit the bricks cuz they dont sing
Your empty promises and bells dont ring
I put you hear so you could win
You will never touch this soul again
All you can do is beg and plead and hope i give you mercy please
All you can do is wait it out
and the truth will come out
dont believe your tainted words......
my truth is your only form of hurt
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
I get high and you get drunk
I get high and you get drunk/
together we put on the funk/
We break it down and party all night/
Cuz its been a while...it been a while/
Sweet temptation of the mind/
contemplating its been some time/
You laid it downed and now im alright
But its been a while, its been a while
shaky pages let you know I'm there/
But its been a while, its been a while
shaky pages let you know I'm there/
all bundled up but still want your care/
Denying truth leaves me alright
But im lying now, im lying now
But im lying now, im lying now
Haziness, makes my body float
weed and pills, meth, g drink and coke
The big eyed feeling led me all night
It's been a while...its been a while
Standing with you but feel im not here
The since of lose, I have no fear
This is something you need to hear
Its been a while
Its been a while
I get high and you get drunk
Wisp of smoke, the smells too much
Chocolate flowing but sours dutch
Its been awhile, its been awhile
Its been awhile, its been awhile
AK rise I lean to side
Swaying off the hurt inside
Lifted senses or lack of touch
Cuz its been a while
Its been a while
I get high and you get drunk/
together we put on the funk/
We break it down and party all night/
Cuz its been a while...it been a while/
Stabilizing, I don't need much
Cuz it makes me forget about you.......
Its makes mr forget about that
It makes me forget what was wacked
Its makes mr forget about that
It makes me forget what was wacked
Its been a while or has it chile?
Hooka fruit and molly called
Hooka fruit and molly called
Feeling light, no need at all
Lost in crowds, cant take it now
Cuz its been a while
Its been a while
Funk pulsating, i need you near
Once I'm high, forget your there
Works out good and I party all night
Cuz its been a while....
It's been a Whileeeeeeeeeeee
Popping, sniffing, gulping those things
Swallow, toking we need these things
Glassy eyes thru veils of smoke
Choke on more than rope a dope
We getting high partying all night
Cuz Its been a while
I'm lying chile
I get high and you get drunk/
together we put on the funk/
We break it down and party all night/
Cuz its been a while...it been a while/
Hate
It flows through my veins
Embedded in my head and there is no way to get it out
The challenge is never a challenge, until it becomes a challenge
I seeth with the demean you show my society
I gleam with the sweat of blood and tears
I hate that you don't see what needs to be done
for the world to be one
or at least function as such
I hate that you throw out misdirection
to leave me unprotected
thinking I was in the wrong
I hate that I still struggle,
Though I'm a Master of three
A counselor for free
And give up all for your conversation
I hate that I still need to search
I lack the birth
To give me cause to carry on
I hate that I feel behind
While everyone thinks I already bend that curve
The cliff exist
for me to fall off from
Ignore more from
And think that I'm okay
I hate that everyday news is carried away to satisfy the network sponsors
I hate that you don't see, cuz you choose to be
Blind
I hate that I still love you so much
I hate that we can't be friends
I hate that this happened again
I hate that, I have hate in my heart
Its time to depart and just tell you my dislikes
My resign
Headlights in the rearview
They coming fast
I hate careless drivers
Prizes.........
I ran to see if the prize was won
The hook never grasped the fluff of the bear
I'm the preacher of this sermon
I rebuke the unworthy vermin
Only to fall trap to the devils needs
I need for things
Illustrations help, cuz im visual
Your worthlessness leaves residuals
How do I get rid of it
Be rid of it
Give back to the innocent
Bend to it
Pause
What makes you feel dirty?
Brick wall stabilized
Fantisized between these thighs
Sarah Jones revolution will be televised
Mine has to be qualified
To feel that i am worthy
I write with my heart and see with my eyes
I write with my left but lose with my right
The ampedextrious have no need here
To be here...this belongs to a one armed bandit
We only C here
Performance is not just a show
I see it everyday
Questioning the laws that protect us all
I do shit for people
Sometimes its illegal
But fuck it the world still turns
Doesn't it???
And i wake up alone........
Bright lights hide the shadow following in my wake
The sun breaks as the clouds run for cover
Filled in days to treat the blaze that the firefighter couldn't conquer
Bar hopping, show stopping good times
Plays and shows, bros and hoes
Lounges that make you skate your honor
Jumping out of planes, wings and thangs
Shots of H2O and absinthe
Ride that bull
Aphrodisiacs don't tell me what I want
But they give me what I need
Bleary eyed, shadow lined eyes reading deep into a sponsor
In life I trust
Queen bed to crush, all the forbidden answers
Playing blackjack chased with pickle backs
The fogginess don't lead to answers
Duck, duck, goose...your it
Then your not
Monday, July 16, 2012
Running away
The footsteps are resounding.....as they taper off
The trip down the stairs was intensified by the metal door.....
Disoriented I stagger to a stand.....
The warmth of the blood drips down my face
The saltiness of it....increases the anger
This is no stranger, but someone that should be trusted
Running into the yard I backtrack
Open the basement door hatch and crumble to the floor
2 minutes
I run up to the room that was mines for so long grabbing items that I can't really distinguish
Hoping I am as silent as I have been for so long
My heart rate won't slow and the adrenaline still has me feeling no pain
Back at the hatch
Into the night......
Running.......................................
Breath labored, chest hurts
Not all who wander.........
The deafining display of life plays out
My actions have always spoken louder than words
Here my words will speak louder than actions
Causing chain reactions
Cause is still unknown
So I walk
Til feet are blistered, in search of a new adventure
to challenege the one that's gone
Hopstopping up the avenues
Getting a kinder view of what has been lost for so long
Life happens throughout everything
Its the way of things
Perception is the cause
Walking the earth
Feeling mother natures birth and appreciating what it formed
This maze eludes me
Tries to fool me
Blocking me in, so I can't move on
Yet I have never stopped moving
The momentum of the desert sand
Make's me cry for a mirage
Where am I?
Watching the ocean swallow the horizon
Who knows the timing?
Or when we will be gone?
Pressure rains........
We come in alone and that is the way we go out
Never sure of the route or where it will leave us
That's why I talk through Jesus, cuz he's been present all along
Imperfect Beauty
It lays at my shoulder so that a glance helps me to remember
Broken soul, painstakingly pieced back together
No matter how new it looks inside it is always broken
Tested through experience and vicarious assaults
Broken down to lose the heart fought for
The effortlessness is not so, it takes practice
Acting is not only a career, it's a need for people like me
Chaos reins within my heart, body and soul
Who I am on the outside is constantly judged
Who I am on the inside is only known by me
The pieces of the jigsaw puzzle all come from different boxes
leaving the picture to never be solved
We are our own worse enemy only after the real one has left us to pick up the pieces of the life they ripped away
Bites to our hands to get the grip from us
Missing coins land on the engagement that was also lost
So we sleep on trains for your benefit of the doubt
Breaking bad while my face hit the concrete
I try to forget
Telling lies to keep my life......not realizing how destroyed it already has become
Step in my shoes and you might never wake up......
Ever break up
Ever come to the realization that your life is fucked up
Life goes on.......
Cherry Blossoms float off the branches with grace, to lay at rest
Beautiful in their fall......
Once they hit the ground the deterioration starts
I do what I do, I say what I say, I make mistakes, I suffer from self esteem issues, I suffer from the neglect of nurturing love, I suffer through my pain, I suffer....but all you can see is beauty
All I see is Imperfection
Childhood games
I'm trapped inside us, trying to remember me
Someone said freeze
The whirlwind of love left jaded pictures
How do I seperate it?
Hiding and seeking
All I see is you, where did I get lost?
The valley tells me that it has been discovered before
Entrapping the soul of the ones that were unsure
Leafing through memories leads to flashes of brilliance
The blinding light cause lightening strikes within my heart
The gathering of goods tells me this is over
Marco..............
Where are you?
The Polo is gone
Is the game over?
Manhunting these empty alleys of the heart in order to find love hidden under a car
Tag your it
Mother may I......grow strong in order to start anew?
The light is RED so I stay still, waiting for the go
I been ducking your goose
in a silent game of musical chairs
Childhood games still plaging the grown
I don't want to grow up, I'm still a............
We were young and now we are not........
So sit your ass down and take these cards, let me figure out when your bluffing
It's time to play the hand you were dealt
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