Sunday, June 24, 2012

The reason some abort it

The liquor stains
Made a mess of things
and anger is awarded

You fight me still
my logic stills
and think of things that I avoided

Your right this way
but im left hand babe
doing crunches to avoid it

Why do you think i still
Invest in project ills
and no one that can afford it

I loved this one
Is the valley from which i defaulted

I sit here wonderin why
my friends dont think its causious
Cuz I drink to much or belligerent yell as such

You think this is avoidance???
Really?
Me???

This is the life that I need, that I see
and you don't know me for it...............

Sad I thought we were built that strong....
I apologize that I let my mind lead my heart into subordinamce

I let down another person

fool me once, shame on you...........fool me twice, shame on me

I guess I'm fucked

Im not built that strong

I thought I had the power to do what I wanted
You were never supposed to be here
but you were

I cant fathom the feelings that laced into the comfort of my chaise when you laid next to me with no question

Your life was here
I embody the fear
of leaving love at a doorstep

What can I do to make it true and show you I am for it
The lights glance over my lids shining the tears on my cheeks
Why is this the destiny I am given

When all I was given was you living
Beside me, to be beside me
To pick up where my heart beat

The beating slows
My heart is dying
I cant take this
Or replace this

Another weathering of  a storm
All I can do is cry.........


what are you doing??

I found love to late

The touch of you left me breathless
I'm not built so strong
I go over in my mind what lead to this and what carried it
and I know that I am wrong

Tis was not your decision
or what you envisioned...
Carry me into the sun

I will stand here proud of you
Lack of time with you
Makes me forget all that was wrong

But we still have Chicago.....


We were made from different wells
But we both could tell
This was something bigger than us

Your Irish breed and my lack of things
Made us equal in our storm
So I hold on
I hope you will too, but I know who is you

Enjoyment fills the song
No taking back what we decided in me or with you for what I was born with
I love you

But you will never feel the encompass of my passing

Here to there....
I need you stable dear...
to weather your circumference

What more can I say but I love you?
I judged you and you showed me what was wrong.....

I guess I'm consigned to being alone
because my heart left with you..........

Sunday, June 17, 2012

My belief

Belief is moving
Because of you I can finally see
I thought that the hurt stopped my movement

You moved me forward, letting me know my reaction was stagnated
The ease of my pain left me contemplating
And then you were there

I know now that I am not only meant to be here
But to see here
Tie all loose ends and question

 Not spose to be here

My lord has felt the valleys i was lost in
Deal to be forced in
Letting me know.....it happens often

We are marching on to heaven
But beuatiful cant sing me that song

I grasp the last of the truth
what can I mean to you
Then i realize my accordance

It does not matter who disregard my name, or say yours in vain....
Im the reporter to record it
I see the fight
I have dealt with might
leave you to think that your subornate

Feel the art that over takes my heart and tell me chill we can move forward
The power in my body leads me to feel sorry
For all the things i never knew....

I want to move forward...help me find the way

Ignored

I stand at the front of the line
Ignored as if I can't be seen...
I have fought and taught....I can carry on
Resilience is a hell of a thing 
Sometimes it leaves you weak and unrecognizable
Who told you I was built that strong and would remain such

Life has dealt an unfair hand
But I have and will continue to play it,
Bluffing death 
Knowing I'm not two of a kind

I am one

I am stuck in hell 
Like a hermit stuck within It's shell
Hearing the call of the ocean 
But finding no water to quench my thirst

This is my devotion and my downfall
Stuck in a hell and no one can tell
Because My exterior shows otherwise
Its my best disguise
Hiding the uncertainty

What you tell me stays in me
What I need to tell stays within me
I can't bring myself to let it go

My brain can only handle so much
My body is facing the repercussions
Who knew chaos would be so fluid

Want to scream but like a tree in the forest 
Unsure if anyone would hear me
Or try to stop the free fall
Because they haven't yet
I doubt anyone will
 
Natural disaster
No stopping the rain
The feeling takes me back to the 200m
Needing that last push but finding nothing in my body to lead me there
Rounding the track, I feel the burst
How long will that contain me

It's getting tiring

Saturday, June 16, 2012

Im a get mine

The smoldering look in your eyes
creates moisture
The lick of your lips silences me
Reflexes are just not the same
I have been weakened 
but there is no kryptonite in sight

The stammering shudders envelope me
I rise to the occasion
Float on the object of being as if I was walking on the moon

The senses switch to sensitive
You never did.......
The caress of emotions in a single breathe
Leaving me to catch my breathe

Sharp occurrences
The pleasure leaves me beside myself
Yeah, right there

Quakes rock the stillness of the wave
Bringing the break to the shore
I got mine, you better get yours.....

Hurry up, I have to go to work......... 

Betrayal


The hurt stagnates me
The unfathomable has occurred
Who was I to think that you were kin

Belief can be broken
In the fragilness of a word
You made your intentions clear 
There is no way around it
This dead end
Prevents me from moving forward

Hoping it was worth it
To search it
Smack it up, flip it, rub it down, and twerk it

Not much to talk about
You initiated  the occurrences
Does it make you feel better now??

Second is never best 

Toleration of mind fuck 
Unconscionable circumstance
Leaving outside high and dry

Pressure points
Pressing the collapse of relations
There is no going back
I been here before

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Ode to the original females: Tom foolery, what happened to the real blue???



The bells still ringing our names
Yoshi, Esh, Beanie
You think the set don't recognize real?
We see the Crystal styling of Ceehy and the Teslie of our Disaster that it turned our blue dreams
Into Blue Stars
Flexing our entertainment, thru wintrop
Reflections of Africa House appearing on Utica
Or was that Ave . D

K.P tripping
Loews theater dipping
The 50's and 90's made it boss

Pool Hall swag,
Clouded glass
Cloud covered whats reported
Showcase swagger, was replaced soon after
With chatting on the cordless

You could reach the New York Raven
We Porno Thugging on  Loch
Chilling with the mafia set to Haitian
Cuz they was True Haitian

Squared you to pulp fiction
Yall never listened
Til the Lorkin lit up the park
Pushing the magnum
 Making the Dillinger jealous and wanting to glow

I can see the fireworks

Locing 6 points to see David

You wanna flag here
You came from no where
claiming unlawful sets
 The epitome of set tripping

I can G stone
The precious jewels of aquamarine
I still gleam, I got that glow
But my brightness leads to blues

What's fake stays there
why act like there's no fear
when I can mop you off your feet
Knuckle game tight, waking up the sleepy
Trying to talk your way out 
but your fear is squared
you have no place here
You got 6 minutes
Choose your 1st

Luckily the years dissolved it
Slow on the uptake leaves you unguarded
 
The barn yard, had no place for you
 We never excepted asses or bitches
 Try the next farm over
It no longer has a place for me

So move there
No peacing here
You have 6 seconds to get off it
Cuz I see gee see, off the travesty as the baby blue flies

White shirted up
Baby Blue
It was a first
 
Peace Loc,
Yo cuz what up
the crates used to lead me forward

The claim is laid
My g the same
Acting hard, pay the charge
 Question if you can afford it

Don't get it twisted
Retired but I'm always here
Heart pumps no fear,
You ain't leaving here
 Your fate could of been avoided


,Still would whip your ass
 to show you class
And how to act accordant
Do I have to show fist going up
 To show you what was on it

Fake breed fake
Theatrics of a performance
Never no talking
Cuz sometimes they still gotta learn

Shine like royal blue
 but I still s m see you
Cuz you aint never earned this OG stature

Now yall all playing games
with crayola

Sick of game's.....I win

Ignorance is not bliss
So what's your excuse?
You can throw fault and blame
Like the cause will change 
but it won't, cause the problem is you!

I don't provide faulty claims 
or lie on my name
acting childishly immature.....

Speaking out your mouth
As the whiff of shit saturates the air

Guess you talking out your ass...

Again

I can your ulterior motives

I speak the truth 
for you it's foreign

Popping the bubble
On the trouble and that four
Hops over you
Leaving me and all the pieces in a straight line
Monopolizing lights, failing to realize this is the clue to winning 

 Checkmate

I win, mother fucker 

Game over

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Lost at Sea


I am alone
The depiction of god leaves me weary
This shit is scary, handling on your own

Provides me with weakness
My soul wont keep this
But is conditioned to weather all the storms

I fight for my freedom
from the challenges of my blood
I'm tired of being tired.....
Resigned with in myself to know

My demands are patient.....
I grow vacant .

I'M LOST AT SEA

Tears fall to sadness

Tears fall to sadness
who am i to be strong???
My body plays a different game\

Guess i was never built that strong

the pain traps me.....
makes my voice raspy
i don't want you to see my pain

I am here for a chosen second
I count my blessings and weather the storm\\

I cant continue to be so strong
to be alarmed\
to have faith and carry on

I'm resigned to failure

I didn't get to choose what my heart brings to you 
in order to write a song

I'm done......

I can guarantee that I will live cautiously
 but when it rains it pours...
Rain on me
Cuz i cant feel anything else

I''m emotionally stagnated
I concur to death i will refer it was gifted,
no matter how it hurts

Blind