Capabilities- Shit just got real

How can I neglect it

When its my body that directs it
My being in the genomes of my blood line

It just got real

Feeling like a child

The d-volvement of my health

Makes me listen as if a drill sergeant stated his order

I'm out of order but not in mind or soul

Just body

The increasing age puts me at risk....

To die, to suffer, to give, to hunger for the ever increasing ability of healthiness

I am not alone but will die that way

Hope I get to say goodbye that day

Cause its no longer in my hands

My spleen almost fully diminished

Hoping I can finish, what I need to do

In order to make my wrongs, righter

Body feeling like fire and my blood is the lighter

How can I extinguish the pain??

I hope in vain, remember my name

I testify

Bone marrow breaches, experience is what teaches
A matter of how far you can go

No morbillity but I was born to die

The time I has been granted

Leaves so many demands its...crazy

No need to pity me, or test abilities

All those wounds have been salted

Body assaulting me, but can never be charged

I brace for the barrage

My neck, my back
I ain't talking about kia bending over to show you her season

My words have reason

I need to believe in

Or die alone cuz i'm deceiving...,

Myself, I wish for health...

To embody it,

I look normal,
Because within this shell,,  pain is my own hell
There is no way I can avoid it

Shit just got real

but im tired and need a nap