Nothing

I dont want to think
I never want to think
I want to live in a stupor of non existence
It hurts too much to think
I can not forgive this

I cannot be relentless when im tired of resentment
Im scared of commitment
Need no one knowing how fucked up i live my existence

Im the witness

But the holes i dig are deep and offer no resistance
When i fall
I fall into
An abyss surrounded by malice, guarded by challenge
Revoking the solice
Irrevocably damaged

Irrevocably damaged

Theres no hope for me damaged

I dont want to be
Irreversibly sandwiched
Dont get close to me
I'm emotional challenged

Its no longer in stilled beliefs
My mind is the chalice
Poisoned so don't drink from it

Wondering how i still manage...