Breaking back

Shattered
The pieces of me sparkling in the fractured light
bouncing off the surfaces
Trying to catch the light through brokeness

This is my circumstance

I was gifted with this affliction
To have to earn my position
To learn how to know these positions
To have to grow from dispositions

To have to know through superstitions
To have to show through realistic living
To still give a go of the cards dealt this christian

This ain't spades and I can't renege
I'll do this bid

Failure is easy
Success takes fighting

Each time this body feels as if its dying
Brings more enlightening
I know im surviving
So I have to keep trying

Have to keep trying

My mind and heart divided

My faith and soul divided

My  isolation and alone is not subsiding

But im fighting
I will continue fighting

I will continue to grow and evolve
Til i reach my resolve
This is about you not me you have to know

I believe in yall

I break
But I break back
Hoping my being is in tack
Mind still attached

I find pieces of me missing but I  break back

Its a trap
but it knows
I won't fall for it
So
I may break but it leads me back to my place

I always break back